officially... unemployed...

hi guys, i know i've been abandoning my blog nowadays as everyday is a new day to do everything else but blog... lol

oh well.. my latest update is.. i'm graduating.. AGAIN...=) i guess in a way i've finally come to terms with it that i'm graduating though not the way i wanted it but i guess.. it's better than not... or rather....

oh well =) now i'm officially unemployed.. without a job, nor am i planning to look for somethign permannent now, all in the head now is to HEAD HOME .. or at least try to go home next year for CNY...

Bridging visa "U" better be approved =) i've better plans at home =)

secrets...

everyone has secrets..

by definition - i think - secrets are not meant to be told nor shared..

however, i also think that if secrets that are shared with someone close makes things better..

BUT... when secrets become a little toooo obvious, but not shared...

then by definition.. it's no longer a secret...

right?

a wrong turn

when things takes a wrong turn, it is bound to take a right turn.

when a door closes, there is bound to be a window open.

therefore, in any circumstance, there is bound to be a silver lining to it

... right?...

life's a fucking bitch...

if these madnes goes on in my head.. god knows.. what i'll do...

can somebody pls do something.. becasue life to me now is an effing piece of shit...

life...

has sucked the fun out of me lately...

the part where i think of myself and my life now.. i've lost motivation along the way.. hopefully i dont screw my last semester.

next where i think that the only entertainment for me is facebook and also random tv shows .. life's pretty much...boring...

then comes the part where spending money is concern .. it bugs the shit out of me lately for no reason. spending now is like a leech sucking blood out of me and yet i allow it as i convince myself some things are meant to be spent on.

to not be stingy and at the same time be on budget kills my brain cells so often tat i think i waste too much brain cells on them too..

wheres the part that i enjoy life? where's the part where i love everyday and not let days passsed by so quickly without even having time to recall what i did exactly tat was productive.

... the head is going to blow soon....

Love is Giving

Love is giving, not taking

mending, not breaking,

trusting, believing,

never deceiving,

patiently bearing

and faithfully sharing

each joy, every sorrow,

today and tomorrow.

Love is kind, understanding,

but never demanding,

love is constant, prevailing,

its strength never failing.

A promise once spoken

for all time unbroken,

love's time is forever.

Anon

Congratulations to the Sze Sze's on their wedding, it was wonderful and very very romantic. wishing you both EVERY happiness =)

http://www.szesze.net

xoxo

Paths.

crossing paths is what i wanted, and if crossing paths is what i get then will crossing paths be enough?

crossing paths? not getting it.. even if i do, there wouldn't be a meeting of hearts

a year older...

technically i'm a year older but i dont feel a difference.. not that i feel younger nor do i feel older...

comes to think of it .. i really wished i was younger with lesser responsibilities then older with much more freedom...

as my aunt put it.. the way the day was celebrated was very much a sign of where i am now - all grown up...

i want to thank June, Natalie, Liliane, Natalie, Cadence and EJ for turning up at my door with a birthday cake =) i was very pleasantly surprised and could not have asked for more =) it's the thought tat counts, i know everybody is very caught up with work...

counting down to my day i was up till 6, pleasantly pleased with an also unexpected birthday wish. thank you too...

the day itself.. i was standing for 7 hours working.. and after work .. i insisted terribly even tho dead tired to have a well deserved dinner.. and who else is better to sit with me for dinner other than my only brother in melbourne.my favourite gift :P

so there it is.. my day.. which came quietly and ended quietly..

its been a while tat i've done this.. PROPERLY :p

cam - whore :P

*dont feel like putting on FB so put here lo :P*

finally..

the first thing mr.mak said when he saw me today was "omg u look like mum!"

then i had to rub it in.. and ask " so how was your day? what did you eat for lunch? what you want to have for dinner? " (exactly like what mum would do) and mr. mak continued to roll his eyes

lol....

oh well.. the little things we do to pass time...

so look like the mrs.mak back home right? i think so too :P

*love you mum* hahahha

heroes dont leave their troops to fight alone and stand alone thru the journey...

WHY?

why the fuck am i studying?

what the hell am i doing?

i've been determined to progress but things just have to stumble and fall in front of me to stop me from it...

what the HELL AM I DOING?

feel like screaming at whoever and watever that gets in the way but things doesn't seem to change for the better...

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?

why are the subjects this semester so hard to grasp, why the people i meet are dickheads, why i can't focus, why i feel suicidal, why why why why why!!!!!!!!~!!!

JUST WHY?

why can i be understanding and no one bloody hells takes the time to understand what i need now!

random thoughts to share

1. lately been reading a book... and i came across this sentence.. that has somewhat caught my attention and after a long time, the line remained as memorable as it is =) it goes like this

"it is a gift to be able to look at the most painful suffering and still find a glimmer of light and bring hope"

have you realised not many people can do that? and i admit i can't do that, but it's worth the try, it makes us better people =)

2. another random thought to share...

i highly recommend Dreamgirls to those who enjoys musicals as much as i do, i know this has been a movie quite some time ago, but IT'S GOOD, until now i still am listening to their soundtracks and still can find inspiration in their lyrics.. =)

3. another random thought, i realised my blog is not as personal as i hoped it will be... just a reminder, this is my territory, my space... pls =) just enjoy what i write and don't make it a CNN ..if anyone do enjoy reading my blog online, take it as a personal enjoyment and not gossiping about it.. and even if u do.. pls (smiles again nicely) dont let it end up in my ears...

4. to be random again =) i woke up today and washed all bedsheets! random enough? :P so tonight all our bedsheets at home will smell like laundry powder.. no more stinky smell already :( i kinda enjoy stinky tho :P (*ok gross, sorry :P)

5. to complain about, i am sitting here for almost the whole day now.. and not progressing at my assg.. good job right.. and it's due this week..grrr

6. went surfing on the net, and realised things that are painfully beautiful always ALWAYS catches my eyes =.=''

THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS!

how come it's always always always me??????

what the hell is wrong with these people!!!! i'm so bloody disgusted that i seriously feel like vomitting now.

It is as if life has not given me enough stress, and to add it up, while i was just sitting in the train after work, BROAD DAY LIGHT, a middle age asshole came sitting next to me, started sitting closer and closer, every chance he gets, he moves closer, tryign to talk to me and i was making it BLOODY OBVIOUS that i'm busy with my book, and with my ipod in my ears..

assholes like you just dont get it dont you.!!!!!!!ARGH!~ i'm so FUCKING ANNOYED AT THIS SHIT! somemore introduced yourself, to shake my hand and not letting go! what the HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!

at the end of it, i have to get off a train to get away from that asshole because his whole body was leaning on me, and wasted time waiting for the next franskton line!

why the hell these things happens to me, AND AS ALWAYS i look so tired and with hair tied up and specs reading a book. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!

i feel SICK TO THE GUT NOW!

The Holiday

.. i've just spent the evening watching this movie, it's a good movie really =)

it may be a little outdated to only watch it now, but it made me cry loads, but it also make u want to just take a break and meet a romantic stranger ...

in many angles, i relate to the characters in the movie, loved it, shed some tears, but also brought hope =)

want to feel warm and fuzzy during the weekend, this is most likely a good movie to start with ... :P my weekend started already .. hahaha

xoxo

Congratulations =)

want to drop a note here, congratulating a good friend who's found happiness =)

may you both have a great life together

congratulations to the both of you and i wish you both every happiness, every joy and all the love

*truly a happily ever after*

wish me luck =)

during this weekend.. there's a take home final exam to complete..

pls pray that it will be SMOOOOOOOTH sailing =)

xoxo

updates...

this is such an abandoned blog i realise for the weeks that i've been busy :P

time to lighten it up again =)

as u guys know the new semester just started and i've already got loads to do! (together with the overlapping winter semester unit)

hehe i'm looking forward to graduate soon, get studies out of the way and right before another chapter of life starts .. me wanna holiday! HOLIDAY! HOLIDAY!

lol i guess that's clear enough, i want to be home where everybody is, want to be close to friends and family ....

not to brag about anything but i think i deserve a good break since i never stopped since undergrad ... and ... A GOOD BREAK IS WAT IM GOING TO GET ....

and i'm going for it.. :P

xxxx

ok, next.... hahahhahaa me got an iphone...

so addictive man seriously!

for the pass few nites i've been sleeping late even after a long day just to learn applications and put stuff in the phone to get it up and running...

now the next motive is to get a pretty baju for my phone...

was out two days in a row to spot for one.. =.='' so disappointing.. didn't get any..sigh...

pray that i get one soon before a scratch on it comes ...

oh well.. tat's all the updates for now..

will be back with more .. hehehe

XOXO

it's been a TRUE while...

that i've not updated my blog..

mm .. ok judgement day came and went.. all is good... not exactly jumping for joy, but i'ts one step closer to goals=) so all is good

Lately, i've been very much addicted to Michael Jackson's songs.. i know this seems old news.. but it's just one of the things that i want to stop and say " YOU WILL BE MISSED"

u made history in the music industry, and has brought us great great music and entertainment for decades, even though as a person u are still a great mystery but as an icon, u're awesome.

why do i stop and commenting a week's old news, this is because as i was waiting for the train today, i walked passed this man who was in suits and a heavy laptop bag, tapping his feet to the ryhthm of the song listening to his ipod, i realised, MJ's songs make me do that too, and i believe no matter we love or hate MJ as an icon or a person, whether or not we are his fans, everyone knows his songs, everyone taps to the rhythm of his songs, and sing along as it goes.

this person had speak out what i think of his passing.

http://images.google.com.au/imgres?imgurl=http://skepticalbrotha.files.wordpress.com/2009/06/michael-jackson-las-vegas.jpg&imgrefurl=http://skepticalbrotha.wordpress.com/2009/06/25/michael-jackson-1958-2009/&usg=__aiAalhbVYP7H42WXa101c9J0Ql0=&h=439&w=568&sz=23&hl=en&start=488&tbnid=151li1Uqh5ZhqM:&tbnh=104&tbnw=134&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dmichael%2Bjackson%26gbv%3D2%26ndsp%3D20%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DN%26start%3D480

XOXO

sick and tired

of being outshined all the time..

wanna be the one shining rather than standing next to one that's shining

being quiet about things doesn't mean feelings are not hurt

being hush about issues doesn't mean i'm not angry

being silent towards comments doesn't mean i'm ok

the worse is, when i'm smiling with you.. it DOES NOT MEAN i'm happy

every person should be respectable, if i'm reminded that i'm ugly and u are shining, it doesn't mean u acknowledge and feel good without taking into account of wat i feel

BE SENSIBLE AND SENSITIVE!

*seriously, majorly, awfully sick and tired*

@@

1215 am...

with no freaking idea how to do my assg

due in a few days .....

SHITS

now wat?

one week old

still as stubborn as ever.. it's still here... grrr

GO AWAY! stop being a stubborn ASS!

*rub rub rub rub*

where is dearest ye ye to rub rub when i need it the most =.=''

very very very belated =)

Finally, exams are over, finally i have time .. to sit down .. to catch up with her...

very sorry for missing your birthday...

most likely making up for it now is a bit too late and there is not official gift nor cake. but thank you for being a great friend, and most of all, a support for me, as you're always ahead of me, you have always been guiding me where to go ...

Thank you for being such a great friend, even though we dont hang out as often as uni days anymore, but it doesn't mean any friendship changes =)

i still VERY MUCH LOVE YOU ... and GRATEFUL that you were here when i needed support the most, although we're both the same age, i feel like you're a big sister to me =) and cherish everything you've done for me.. Thank you very very very much ..

happy very very very belated birthday miss owee.. !!!!

love tonnes~!

XOXO

P.A.I.N

another earthquake at work again....

big brother bruise.
try spotting the smaller brother bruise =)

and the ones on the arm....

and not forgetting before that i close the cash register on my little finger...

how else not to be in pain...

this time.. it caused tears....

女人的成功。。。

就是可以让他的"男人们"都对她死心塌地，

就算是沉迷在洒满谎言里的日子，他都愿意为她这个贱人，

名叫winnie ng，而被困在这不知所谓的世界。

身为一个女人， 她一脚可以有本事踏三船，还一个接着一个的玩。 (因为船还没沉呢!)真厉害!

被发现了以后，他的男人还是决定原谅她，宁愿自己受伤害也在所不辞。

成功吗?

这种人简直是丢完我们女人的面子，伤害了情人之间的联系

让人讨厌到极点

难道对一段感情真心的付出，尽心的培养，称心的希望它开花结果是罪吗?

如果你真的不会珍惜眼前所拥有的"几颗"真心，请你不要一个接着一个的玩弄!

如果这真是你的成功之一，那你。。。。。是我们最大耻辱!!!!!!

Hello World!

hi people... i know i've been not updating .. disappeared a while.. but i guess u know wat' s happening.. i'ts been HECTIC...and it still is...

just wanted to share a joke i heard ...

as you guys most probably know by now that tolls of swine flu in Victoria is getting higher by the day.. so ....

Interviewer: Are you afraid of the swine flu?
Celebrity: Nah~ because i believe if i'm bitten by the pig i'll get super powers...

:P

LOL

Today's horoscope

To Ms. Virgo

"A feeling that anything is possible if you set your sights high enough is what it's all about today. You are full of optimism, faith, and may feel the need to take chances at the deepest emotional levels. This is a time of exploring your feelings, a restlessness for new emotional experience and adventure. "

hmm to a certain extent.. this is quite true =)

must try and take some new risks and explore new feelings and new adventures :P

for the first time~

i want..more than just a pass...T.T

and it burst my bubble.. the first pass in the course...

sigh

"( it's still bugging me...........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

happy birthday dearie, it's been so long since we last talked. aiyo .. i miss you so much...

miss when approaching exam time u will nag me to study and stess me out..

miss when u crack cold jokes until we could almost see snow in melbourne.. hahaha

miss when we all gila gila together..
miss when we all "aunty-aunty" together . go market. cookouts..
miss when we have to MUST MUST kopi together everywhere! ... now nobody feed my caffeine addict ady.. haha want to find kaki also hard..
miss that time when u laugh at me when i can't jog like you=.=''
miss when we group study.. now exams are coming i have yet to start =.=''

miss when you offer to cook meals for me then end up washing plates :P lol

miss when you "gian" minum at home also .. hahahha
soooo much more..

WOI! cepat balik sini.. mari gila gila lagi =) lol

anyway.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY and hope you have a great one and may you have a great year ahead and everything goes your way =)

miss you tonnes and love you loads.. thank you for growing up with me =) and make me grow up too =) you are a great friend that everyone can wish for and so much more and melbourne has since been so much different when u left .

.

xoxo

=.=

my eyes are barely open and i have to be awake ...

sigh~

i'm heading to work again.. not that i'm complaining about work... i kinda like what i do now since i've gotten used to the routine.. BUT~

what i'm allowed to complain about is!

i've been coughing like shits at night T.T and i dont like it.. i can't sleep.. and i need the beauty sleep! i WANT to I LOVE to sleep...=.=.. yet the cough gets in the way~ grrrrrrr so not helping at all ..

2 nights in a row already.. enough enough enought T.T

GAH~~~~~~~

make me so grumpy in the morning...

U PISS ME OFF!

dont come and talk crap in front of me saying how the work should be done for more than a week and you do nuts...

dont come and bull shit with me to have a comprehensive discussion when you have done nuts

dont come and tell me you being a uni student dotn know how to cite your work while writing

dont come and tell me that the dateline for ourselves was friday and YOU YOURSELF DID NOT COMPLETE IT UNTIL TODAY AND IT'S BLOODY DUE TOMORROW

dont talk shits with me saying you're stressed. YOU BROUGHT THIS UPON YOURSELF AND PLEASE DONT PUT YOUR MESS ON US

YOU ASSHOLE!

dinner with gyn =)

i remember i used to post updates on what i cook.. and i've yet to be doing that in a while now.. it's been so hectic and busy and weekends fly by in an instant. i'm currently very very tired and eyes are about to close any moment. but! lol

......

something to share with you guys =)

dinner with me?

i've tried on a new recipe today...

Ham and Cheese Potato Bake
it's taste a quiche-like texture

it tasted yummy =) but still could be improved in the texture of the potato bake in terms of the egg and cream mixture and also the onions to be more finely chopped =)

very happy with the first attempt

yay!!!

ok.. now i'm done showing u my achievement of the day

night everyone .....

To Share...

in the midst of doing my assignment, i've blog hopped a bit, and came across a few nice posts, let me share it with u guys.. hope that person dont mind =) it's nice to share isn't it =)

The first one was a short line that i read, was so personal

"Eh, talking halfway you go and sleep... make me feel stupid only" (personal enough?)

Next, this is what i call being positive =)

I am thankful...

1. For the husband who snores all night, because he is at home asleepwith me and not with someone else.
2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes,because that means she is at home & not on the streets.
3. For the taxes that I pay because it means that I am employed.
4. For the mess to clean after a party because it means that I have been surrounded by friends.
5. For the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat.
6. For my shadow that watches me work because it means I am out in the sunshine.
7. For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning because it means I have a home.
8. For all the complaining I hear about the government because it means that we have freedom of speech.
9. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lotbecause it means I am capable of walking and that I have been blessed with transportation
10. For the noise I have to bear from my neighbours because it means that I can hear.
11. For the pile of laundry and ironing because it means I have clothes to wear.
12. For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day because it means I have been capable of working hard.
13. For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am still alive.

Enjoy~

A lesson...

to be learnt. this post is no offence to anybody but an awareness..

statements that sucks big time... big NO NO to use...

1. * concentrating with sudoku on the train - then a hand comes into sight - then when the girl looks up - he smiles and say ...* " you love maths??? i see you've been doing this quite often" =.=''

2. *wanna catch attention or start a conversation .. never* " why u so slow wan... *in canto* so big do things so slow" *then smiles back to expect a reaction*

3. * wanna know whether someone's taken - just ask - not * " oh u are different..., your bf must be lucky to have you " ( if u're expecting me to tell u whether or not.. i'll just smile to tat sentence and have no further reaction)

4. * wanna make someone feel special - dont ..* "if... i'll make that the highlight of the week for you" (not "for me".. but use "for you" =.='')

5. *wanna praise somebody - dont..* "you don't look your age.. must be the hair.. asians have nice hair" <<<< that's what i call ODD =.=''

all the above... you'll only get this expression =.='' and it'll go no where.. ..

plans...

S.C.R.E.W.E.D

for the weekends...

couch potato???

not!

lazing and sleeping ??

Not!

i did this.....dressed up..some alcohol..having some fun with the girls.

However, the highlight of the night was...the sleepover at Zoe's

cam whoring sessions with her.. *no idea wat she posing also*

.chattings and catching ups. *haven't been doing so since the seasons of assignments

.hot milo, comfy couch, and conversations running.

.yap yap yap until bed time at 430am.

Thanks babe! good fun =)

A Cup of Coffee

here i am sitting in front of my pc early in the morning.. with my essential cup of kopi =) to start my day...

going to work soon...

today will be a day of relaxation...

after work... i look forward to just S.L.A.C.K at home...

be a COUCH POTATO on a friday night...

")

not a bad idea aye...

looking forward to the space .. *loves* yipppeeee

(dunno why so hyper also... only watch tv =.='')

(can ignore the hyperness)

I've not been sleeping at times i should nowadays.. cuz i was too "smart" to have tea to keep myself warm at night.. then it makes me stay WIDELY awake at night...

thus i shall... s.h.l.e.e.p.p all i want this weekend :P.. haha..

like this fella..

Issues..

a few issues... today .. grrr my nail broke morethan it should.. it hurt...

a small wrist bruise .. no diea where from...

nails are chipping apart...

the other issue that's annoying me..my left eye is STILL TWITCHING after a week.. come on.. if anything that has happened tat was supposingly bad.. i dont need anymore .=.='' i want a break!

Happy Mommy's Day!!!!

Dear mummy...

Happy Mommy's day!!!

Thank you for everything you've done...

Words could not describe how important you are to me...

Thank you for being there...

Thank you for nagging...

Thank you for being so "cheong hei"

Thank you for always making me want to argue with you at times... (lol)

But most of all...

Thank you for being so encouraging...

Thank you for loving me as i am...

Thank you for making sure that i'm ok at my lowest...

Thank you for celebrating with me when there's been an achievement

and so much so much more~~

speaking on behalf of my brothers too...

even tho we monkeys always make you angry, make you wanna just "take time off" of your "san fu" full time job.. but i'm sure =) you KNOW!!!! that deep down we all LOVE YOU TO BITS!!!! (otherwise also wont make you angry! lol)

致亲爱的婆婆。。。

母亲节快乐!!! 希望您永远都开开心心，健健康康。

我们这里的两只"猴子" 很想您。。。我很怀念每天和您无聊的吵!!!=)

我们要趁母亲节，这个特别的日子说声 谢谢!!!!

好爱您!

To the rest of the mums out there! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

p.s//To the rest of us out there.. remember to wish our dearest mums a happy mother's day! treat them well while you can =)

感动。。。 =)

无论如何， 是真是假，作为听者， 也很开心， 听到了，人也精神了起来

真心的告诉你， 我因有了你感到骄傲， 现在很快乐。

谢谢你=)

Happy Big 30!!!

Happy Birthday UNCLE Leon... now i can officially call u uncle and u CANNOT call me auntie no more.. cuz u "tiga keping tak da change" lol...

sorry the celebration came a little late.. but the small gathering was fun.. hope u achieve ur dreams, become a DR soon! lols and of course had a great b'day. =)

thanks for being a good friend.. if it weren't for you this big kor kor brought me out when i was first here.. me most likely became a turtle that hides inside her shell for comfort already.. THANK U LOADS...UNCLE leon and wifey AvrilUS.. we went to this place on Clarendon St, "Blue Rock" (i think) hahhaa i can't remember.. it's definitely blue somethign but can't remember the name.. served good food.. for the very first time i had lamb shanks served with some mashy eggie thing.. i tought it was couscous..but then again it doesn't taste like couscous.. no idea at all what i had..HAHAHAH...

Natalie and Owee each also had claypot, one of them were mushroom and chicken with risotto, the other were spiced pork risotto.. very interesting food we had that night..

After our treat for dinner, b'day boy *ahem UNCLEahem* treat for dessert.. look how happy ms owee is.. with hot white chocolate ..:P

uncle over there messing around..haha as i was taking the photo... they served cake.. so now u know where ms.owee was looking at...
Carrot Cake! yums.. but tasted like apricot and nuts cake.. hahaHappy birthday again =)