Tonnes on my mind

Woke up this morning with tonnes on my mind, I've gotten the good news that the Occupancy Permit has been released, which means we're moving into the new apartment on time.. Which also in other words means that we're going to be really busy next week. I'm thinking of a way to do stuff this week first before anybody comes next week then we could just concentrate on moving. Meaning in other words, I've got to look for steam cleaning services, transfer my lines and also cancel my water supply account for this unit this week. hmmmm Where to start looking...

I've packed most of my stuff and just have to wait to transfer from one unit to the other..i better do a checklist ..

=)

Gyn gyn ... Hates Needles...

I went for my appointment this morning and realised that i've gotten the time wrong and had to wait till noon to see the doctor. and unfortunately to my liking i had to see a male doctor for my rashes.. while waiting to see the doctor i managed to play the piano for a while and had great quality time with the piano =) there after i met Shu Yunn for lunch and we did a little bit of shopping before I had to go see the doctor..throughout the whole outing and quality time the thought of howing my rash to the doctor just ..ugh.. (hate it) ..



Arrived slightly before my appointment time, was literally feeling just tired while waiting for the doctor. When finally it was my turn.. the doctor didn't wanted to give me some cream or some sort to cure the rash.. instead he suggested blood test to see whether i had any infections or something like tat... I am very very phobic towards needles.. or rather i'm extremely phobic towards needles.. I rejected the first offer, then after realising i'm not going to get some sort of cure for my rash other than taking antihistamine pills which i already did before seeing the doctor i said YES :(



the doctor clearly said that i would come back the next day for blood test, unfortunately again that the nurse said she'll do it today for me..



GOODNESS me.. i thought i could handle it by myself, I was SOO wrong.. i'm known to have small veins and hard to draw blood due to pass experiences, this is not good at all. STarted out with my left arm, the injected me and realise the blood is not flowing out smoothly, only filled a quarter of both tubes.. and because it was inefficient they had to switch arm.. She pulled out the needle without warning.. i actually .. almost almost screamed... Then out of the blue everything around me was turning.. the next minute i know i was lying on the floor of the clinic with my legs up..

The nurse knew tat if she let me go home and rest and come back the next day for more.. i would stress over it and it will get worse.. so we decided to get through with it one and for all.. but this time i lied down while she drew blood... luckily the second time was ok and they managed to draw the amount of blood they wanted....

i hate needles and i'm very afraid of them.. came back feeling drained.. took almost a 2 hour nap. woke out without appetite and rested early becuase i was also feeling very drained.. Yunn did mentioned that i really did look like a patient last nite.lolz..

Just to draw blood for rashes.. this is the first time.. and it better be ok..

Aimless but Stress

Good morning~ The sun is bright and shiny today and i's a good day to get out of the house. Unfortunately, initial plans are cancelled so hopefully i'll be able to book the piano room =)

Nothing much is going on lately, just plain boredom and i've become a couch potato, just watching tv everyday. Lately, my rashes are getting worse, showed my mum last night, she asked me to see the doctor straight away. So.. good girl me, made an appointment to see the doctor tomorrow morning. hehe.. Hopefully it's alright, I think it's no biggie just maybe stress over the release of results. My dad and grandpa will be coming to Aussie soon to help us move apartment and this time around a close friend decided to join us too. All the upcoming happy events are arriving and yet i fear that if my results are bad, it would not be all that happy. Ugh~ Results please please please be good. Seems like some people around me has already broke down because of the upcoming release of results. Hope everything is going to turn out right. Now i'm wondering what in the right mind made me take 4 core subjects last sem.Sigh~ I dread for that day =(

Another aimless day, in Melbourne.
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Someone just commented i flirt when i was just honestly wishing good luck and all the best from the heart. Rather disappointed. When things are at this point, there really isn't much to flirt about. My mood just dropped zero all of a sudden.

Why I let you affect me? Why ?

There's always been a struggle within, and i don't know how to speak it out. Am currently at crossroads. Too many of them..Sigh

My rashes outbreak is definitely due to overloading stress. No need to see doctor.. sigh~

GANBATTE~

为了要享受假期，考试要努力哦!!!

加油，加油，加油!!!!~~~

Results =(

Results are coming out soon in a few days, I'M REALLY NOT EXCITED ABOUT IT...

In less than a week, my results will tell me exactly what have i been up to during the semester and for that i'm afraid of it. This semester i've challenged myself to take all 4 core subjects and now i will have to sit and wait for the consequences of my decisions... sigh~

I think becuase of all the nerves that are breaking down before me, my skin is getting bad, rashes on my arms are just weird, I've not have this before and am always having gastric. Goodness me... there's a contradicting feeling that i want it to come out a.s.a.p so that i can get it over and done with it and another feeling is that just dont' let me know my results..

sigh~ Pls pray for the results to be alright, I can't take another heart breaking results again...

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Your seriousness has taken me aback, I didn't know what i said will pressure you this much. I keep telling you that for now put yourself ahead of others, think of exams before anything else but it seems that i've made you think.

I must admit that i've not seen this side of you before, so serious all of a sudden. But i want you to know that there is really no rush into all this as it will just get messy. It's not that i will run away, I will wait patiently for decisions being made and no matter what is it I'm sure your decisions are being respected.

Take time out for yourself, i know it's too heavy of a burden on your shoulders.

I'm sorry for putting you through this..

This is all i need to know for now =)

No matter what will happen, no matter what is next for me.

Whatever you said today is all i need to know for now..

Live your life first .. do what you think it's important before making decisions.

For now, put yourself ahead of others =)

Love always.