相思病又发了!!!~

要加油，我会等你和我实现一起带四方帽的约定!!!

Out of the Blue

Within me, it's a struggle.

Within you, it's a stuggle.

When i asked you "why", there's no answer to it.

When you asked me "why", i forgot what i told you.

I also forgot what it meant to me and you.

Suddenly I don't know what i'm fighting for, do you?

True enough, the horoscope said that someone supportive will leave a lasting impression.

It did happened, and now I don't remember what i was fighting for...

You?

Suddenly i'm so tired that i don't even remember what was the lasting impression made but i'm just worried sick.

I guess you don't know..

Do you?

Everything should only leave in the silence of the air and let the night end with a "sigh"

Tea time with Gyn Gyn ..(Cheesecake Fanatic)

Since the successful attempt of the Mango Cheesecake, i've been having the "cheesecake craze" going on within myself. HEhehe.. and i've been trying to explore other deco for the cake, instead of just using mango.. it's gotten more and more creative slowly =)

Since Nidhi was leaving, going back to India for the summer break, I hanged out with them at their place during the whole saturday, so since i'm going over to their new place, hehe.. another reason for me to make cheesecake and bring it over to their place for tea time =)This time, instead of mangoes, i played around with the idea of using peaches.. hehe so it's improvised and now it's the Peach Cheesecake. Arpitha, Nidhi and the rest of the gang loved it and enjoyed the cheesecake very much. I'm truly glad =)

Next, because there were special request for cheesecake for guest coming on monday. :P another excuse for me to improvise again =) hehehe.. enjoy~~~~~

So on Sunday night, after a good dinner, the process repeats again.. making cheesecake .. YUM~

and this time, it looks like this..

This third cheesecake i've made so far in two weeks, was improvised by adding Oreo cookies into it.. hehe.. and now.. it's Oreo Cheesecake..

Guests enjoyed it.. and it also tasted good and YUMMY~~

Awesome cheesecake craze!!!~

So near yet so far

I've never spoken to you for so long on the phone before, it feels great.. But everytime i realise after a converation with you, I also feel the sense of regrets for telling you too much and letting you know what's on my mind too much. I'm glad we could talk but i'm also regretting of letting you know too much information.

I'm sorry if once again i pressure you.

The fear of losing you is now greater compared to previous times because the closer i get to you the more i fear the decision making day.

I apologize for being so selfish in wanting a specified time, but if i don't do that we all will get hurt further and i hope you understand.

We're always so near yet so far, it seems you're just right next to me and yet you're not. Sometimes it even feels real that you are there for me but I often wonder whether is it an illusion of the heart that it wants to see.

But no matter what it is, I hope we could talk it out and once again be there for each other again.
Because at the end of the day, you are still a friend that's very close to the heart.

No matter what happens, i'm glad you've at least once considered me, and i really appreciate that and by thinking of that sometimes cures fear by a little.

And I honestly am glad that these decisions are being thought of for the long run and I once again apologize for putting the pressure on you.

Thank you.

Results are out.

To keep it short and simple.

Results are out.

I'm not happy about it.

It has caused a lot of guilt within.

I know it's bothering me but i just don't want it to affect me.

Flashes of images are coming out in my mind about how will it be when i get back home next weekend.

No idea.

Worried.

Short and simple enough i believe.

Thank You

Horoscopes..

Today... overall a good day, did window shopping and scouted for furnitures, now just have to let good old daddy decide what he wants =) ..

After a few hours of scouting we decided to head back home .. avoid spending money outside.. =)

Hopped on the train with Shu Yunn to head back home and decided to read some newspapers.. As usual, my favourite is to slowly flip to the page where Sudoku and Horoscope readings are and then paused there and never moved on towards other pages.. today was no other...

While i read the horoscope, I found something rather ironic and just weird the way they spoke about today..

To you Mr. Pisces,
It says...

"The quality of relationships is determined by the time invested in them. Pick out people whose company you enjoy and focus on their needs or interests. Happiness comes from giving as much as receiving".

To me Ms. Virgo,
It says...

"As much as you dislike disruption, sudden developments work to your advantage. The moon in your sign favours acts of faith over analysis as the way forwards this weekend. Also, someone supportive could leave a lasting impression".

Though i don't know much about whether mine is true, but just as i was having thoughts of something similar to disruption when i read that, it was just.. weird...

And plus knowing the situation you're in where decisions have to be made, when i read your horoscope readings today.. it also felt ... weird....

As much as i find it weird in both of our readings, I guess it does make sense also in some kind of a weird way.

What do u think?

Your tactfulness has caused damaged!

Has it every occur to u that i'm also human that i sometimes have emotions and i'm not always happy. when u haven't spoken to me for so long, instead of asking "how are you"
you asked "when are you coming back" well i suddenly see the bright light that may shine upon me that u still care.. boy was i wrong!!!~

While i said i'm only coming back next weekend and i jokingly said "why? missing me already!" you harshly just said "you wish!~" the fact that u're being tactful already hurts and plus i wasn't in a good mood you just totally bruised me!~

Is it so hard to be nice to me? Have i done something so wrong to deserve your treatment this way? What's wrong with you?

It's a bad full stop to the end of today and u just pushed me even further and deeper into the gloom..

I wished i could cry when i felt like it but i just couldn't get it out of my system.. it's all reacting funny instead by the tingles on my body and the aches of my body.. goodness me.. (if YOU happen to read this, dont' worry it's not because of you that i could feel that down, YOU are seriously not worth my time anymore.. you just happened to make me feel worse than i already am feeling right now)

Being tactful is just NOT nice!~