its been a while tat i've done this.. PROPERLY :p

cam - whore :P

*dont feel like putting on FB so put here lo :P*

finally..

the first thing mr.mak said when he saw me today was "omg u look like mum!"

then i had to rub it in.. and ask " so how was your day? what did you eat for lunch? what you want to have for dinner? " (exactly like what mum would do) and mr. mak continued to roll his eyes

lol....

oh well.. the little things we do to pass time...

so look like the mrs.mak back home right? i think so too :P

*love you mum* hahahha

heroes dont leave their troops to fight alone and stand alone thru the journey...

WHY?

why the fuck am i studying?

what the hell am i doing?

i've been determined to progress but things just have to stumble and fall in front of me to stop me from it...

what the HELL AM I DOING?

feel like screaming at whoever and watever that gets in the way but things doesn't seem to change for the better...

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?

why are the subjects this semester so hard to grasp, why the people i meet are dickheads, why i can't focus, why i feel suicidal, why why why why why!!!!!!!!~!!!

JUST WHY?

why can i be understanding and no one bloody hells takes the time to understand what i need now!

random thoughts to share

1. lately been reading a book... and i came across this sentence.. that has somewhat caught my attention and after a long time, the line remained as memorable as it is =) it goes like this

"it is a gift to be able to look at the most painful suffering and still find a glimmer of light and bring hope"

have you realised not many people can do that? and i admit i can't do that, but it's worth the try, it makes us better people =)

2. another random thought to share...

i highly recommend Dreamgirls to those who enjoys musicals as much as i do, i know this has been a movie quite some time ago, but IT'S GOOD, until now i still am listening to their soundtracks and still can find inspiration in their lyrics.. =)

3. another random thought, i realised my blog is not as personal as i hoped it will be... just a reminder, this is my territory, my space... pls =) just enjoy what i write and don't make it a CNN ..if anyone do enjoy reading my blog online, take it as a personal enjoyment and not gossiping about it.. and even if u do.. pls (smiles again nicely) dont let it end up in my ears...

4. to be random again =) i woke up today and washed all bedsheets! random enough? :P so tonight all our bedsheets at home will smell like laundry powder.. no more stinky smell already :( i kinda enjoy stinky tho :P (*ok gross, sorry :P)

5. to complain about, i am sitting here for almost the whole day now.. and not progressing at my assg.. good job right.. and it's due this week..grrr

6. went surfing on the net, and realised things that are painfully beautiful always ALWAYS catches my eyes =.=''

THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS!

how come it's always always always me??????

what the hell is wrong with these people!!!! i'm so bloody disgusted that i seriously feel like vomitting now.

It is as if life has not given me enough stress, and to add it up, while i was just sitting in the train after work, BROAD DAY LIGHT, a middle age asshole came sitting next to me, started sitting closer and closer, every chance he gets, he moves closer, tryign to talk to me and i was making it BLOODY OBVIOUS that i'm busy with my book, and with my ipod in my ears..

assholes like you just dont get it dont you.!!!!!!!ARGH!~ i'm so FUCKING ANNOYED AT THIS SHIT! somemore introduced yourself, to shake my hand and not letting go! what the HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!

at the end of it, i have to get off a train to get away from that asshole because his whole body was leaning on me, and wasted time waiting for the next franskton line!

why the hell these things happens to me, AND AS ALWAYS i look so tired and with hair tied up and specs reading a book. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!

i feel SICK TO THE GUT NOW!