为何。。。

找不回些感觉。。。

难道因为事情的改变而变吗???

值得被珍惜的东西， 慢慢走远了吗???

是我想太多吗? 但总觉得不是我想太多。。。

这应该才是事实的开始。

Days like this...

some of the days u just feel like staying home, you just feel like sleeping the whole day.. you just feel like lazing and being a useless person at home..

that's how i feel today..

falling asleep last nite very motivated to complete my workload as soon as possible.. today waking up to a whole different perspective which is laziness :S....

=.=

must try to survive without a caffeinated system ... it's like drugs .. only function with it and not without it.. B.A.D

and as i'm typing this posts and having a cup of coffee at 5 pm .. i'm getting ready to go for class soon.. grr...why classes are all so late =.=''

H.E.C.T.I.C

as d title said.. it's been one hell of a week and more to come ~~~it's unfortunately not over yet for me.. sigh.. but anyhow...

DO YOU believe that a compliment a day keeps the spirits high up and away??? :P

Happy 21st Harvey!

hopefully this is not too late.. it was darling harvey's 21st on friday. We all had a great time..

a message from me to you.

Happy 21st birthday again darling! it's soooooo nice to see u have so much fun on a big day like this and so many people that are important to you around you on your big day.
On a quick note, just want to say thank you =) thank you for being part of my life and giving me a bond to cherish much much.. it doesn't matter how long i've known you for.. wat matters is that we NEVER fail to be there for each other right at the begining.
No matter how circumstances may change in the future, both u and i and the missie there .. lols. will still have each other =)
and as we always say.. love you long long time =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!!!!

Have u...

met my twin????

trust me, people do believe when i say so .. lolz

A Proposal???

Today my day was truly driven purely by coffee.. i couldnt' sleep the nite before and i guess it's due to the anticipation of my first 8 hour class today. Unfortunately, my 8 hour class was nothign much but a disappointment, they treated us like we're all experienced to the relevant subject .. so throughout the whole class looking like this >>> @.@

then i think the lecturer dismiss us early by mistake and he didn't know he was suppose to cover the first 3-4 topics as we've not had classes since the semester started... so we left early.. but then again even if he didn't dismiss us early, i would've left to do my own readings... cuz i REALLY REALLY couldnt' understand wat he was talking about.. i've never expose myself to any form of knowledge regarding insurance contracts before.. and out of the blue i was expected to understand a whole load of stuff ..@.@

so i just decided to head to the city to grab a spot at starbucks and just do my OVERLOADED readings!~ i know staying home i would just do loads of other crap but my readings.

starbucks was PACKED today.. =.= so i went to QV found a nice spot in the midst of people walking around.. i did my readings..

3 hours later...(tick tock tick tock...)
someone came and sat in front of me with a bottle of beer.. i didn't acknowledge in the first place cuz i just assumed it would be like the previous lady who sat in front of me just to have sushi. then i realised,, he (looked like in his mid 30s)looking a bit tipsy kept looking .. at me!
so i removed one side of my ear phone... the conversation then started ..

Weirdo: You're very rude do u know that... i said hi and u didn't reply.
Me: (shocked and panic) oh i'm sorry.. i didn't hear you..(tried to give a smile and then continued staring at my notes, HE KEPT LOOKING)
Weirdo: (SUDDENLY GRAB MY HANDS) you're very beautiful do you know that.. u''re very unique.. i swear i swear...(kept smiling at me)
ME: (turned cold.. getting scared..) oh thank you..(let go of his hand and continued to stare at my notes)
Weirdo: (smiled and stare again) you're very beautiful and unique.. i swear i swear..
ME: (wanted to call for s.o.s but no one was paying attention.. didn't dare to touch my phone cuz i'm scared he would get offended so i just smiled)thank you.
Weirdo: So how are you today? you know, you and i , we could get married, we'd made a great couple.
Me: (could hardly smile now) it's alright.. long day.. how are you today?
Weirdo: yea.. long day too.. i know u hate me right now but do u know u're very beautiful...
ME: (OMG i could SCREAM!!!! ) mm i'm sorry i'm not too comfortable like this..
Weirdo: i know i know.. where're u from? i'm ... (forgotten his name.. i think it started with an A) i'm spanish.. ..... (he said the same thing again in spanish..)
ME: (T.T freaking already)

basically it continued like this for a while.. at least 10 minutes.. i turned cold.. he even asked me wat i'm studying.. he told me he was working at Warner Bros and he started singing a tune!
then it went on .. i started to ignore him.. he wanted to grab my hands again.. i kept it to myself.. i was so scared and helpless...

when i kept looking at my notes then i looked at him again.. then he said tat he was gonna leave soon, and apparently he bought somethin but couldnt' find it.. he was checking it in his bag.. it was filled with beer bottles..

while trying to ignore him.. he took of his shirt .. and wore a jacket unzip.. i swear i could cry instantly..

when he finally left.. i couldnt' breath.. i IMMEDIATELY asked JR to come down from her place..


a proposal?? like this??? GO AWAY DUDE.. U'RE FREAKING ME OUT! ( an ordinary person would never understand wat he did cuz i was not dressed up .. with my hair pushed up, long sleeves, plain jeans and sport shoes.. ARE YOU KIDDING ME! whatever i was today it was no other than LOW PROFILE).

it was the longest and most helpless 10 mins in my life.. ***scared***

often times...

when a heart breaks, it takes time to heal, it knows what's the right thing to do .. and it is doing it's best on its own.

however, when a heart breaks, it's prone to emotional rides, regardless whether it is about the main cause.

one thing, i realised, one thing that the heart takes a longer time to adapt is that, it suddenly feels so fragile, i cry on tv shows, i cry during movies, i've suddenly out of the blue become sensitive to touching moments on screen!! well i guess you could argue that it's only human to feel that way..

but lately, even though i 've been very much occupied, the heart feels empty.. i find that i drown in my own thoughts easily, i sway away from conversations, i seem to not even pay attention sometimes when i'm engaged in a conversation.

At times like this, how i wish that instead of looking out for someone, why not someone come looking out for me...