Down

I'm stressed.. finally i feel it badly... I have no mood to study and when i sit myself down to try and remember what i covered for the paper on Friday. I CAN'T remember. All these while, studying in uni with friends was associated with the word productive. Today it was associated with the word stress. It was overloading to see them work so much on the Tax Paper and i still have to cover FM before the Tax paper. Tat's why i excused myself from them and came home early. When i'm home, i can just feel the overloading headache and stress.. it's been a bad day today i hate it. I want to study i dont' want to fail but i can't bring myself to it. i'm doing everthing and anything but studying.

It feels like something from inside wants to breaks out and cry but it is just stuck within. HOW?

Sigh~

am just down today

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BROTHER

Ok, i've got to admit, typing that title gives me shivers .. we're not that loving...but oh well... it's his birthday .. hehe

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LERN!!~

Today this fella turns 19 and we decided to have a small celebration for him. So after exams i cooked up a meal and we had birthday cake ( compliments from Hui san) to just have a simple celebration as he actually has exams tomorrow and the day after. So we've got to make it short and sweet.

Here are some pictures we took today. lolz.. Sorry if this turns into another Dine-with-me entry again..I made lamb chop with mash potatoes (psss.. mash potatoes made from scratch.. ) :P. For the first time I blended the ingredients to marinate the meat, gave it a good massage.. and waaalaaa~~

yay.. i'm quite happy with the meal.. hehehe... a spontaneous meal turned up ok after an exam, it's just a blessing in disguise ..

He just wants to pose disgustingly with the food..why??

Introducing the mastermind for tonight's celebration.. Hui San

oh gosh.. i look terrible in this picture.. but oh well.. that's the only one that presentable this time.. lolz..can't expect much when it's after an exam and the lack of sleep..

Love this picture of the cakes.. so colourful and pretty... droolling yet??? hehehe..

Happy 19th Birthday again and may this year brings u loads of luck and all the best in everything you do.

(p/s: better do well for exams tmr..hehe ganbatte!!~)

Love always..

One down, Three to go..

Even though i dont' really feel the stress hitting me i definitely was stressed, i was lying on the bed tossing and turning for a few hours and i did not get a good night sleep. Gosh.. am currently dead tired but decides to blog before i go to sleep =)

Waking up this morning was tough becuase of the heavy head and due to the lack of sleep, i had bad running nose and just want to lie down. What a way to start exams. But the moment i step out of bed, i showered in order to wake myself up. And approaching towards the exam, i intoxicated myself with caffeine and sugar. I was definitely awake during exams.

When i saw my paper and oh my god.. i could imagine myself failing this paper in a blink of an eye but due to the over dosage of caffeine and sugar, i was smiling like an idiot during exams and for the first time, writing for the whole 3 hours caused my hands to sweat pretty bad.

After the 3 hour paper, I came out smiling at my friends saying that it was bad paper. (like they believed me) but oh well, i think i gave everybody mixed messages today and oh please!!~ i just want to pass this paper.. comes to think of it.. i've had alot of writers block this time, towards the end of the exams i kept cutting off what i've written and re-write them again and i lose my stream of thought very easily. I hope this dont' happen during thursday and friday. I can't afford any of the misfortunate events of failing..

I think all the built up made me gone crazy today. It's time for a good rest.. and tomorrow another battle to fight against two back to back papers.. oh gosh.. i could smeelllll the holiday breeze coming my way and i can't wait to get this exam out of the way...

~cries~

Reason for crying
1. Exams are around the corner, the fact that my friends have at least done one paper makes me feel very envious and that the suspense towards my own exam is killing me
2. I have no mood to study for exams AT ALL.. (so dead)
3. WHY uni has to be so tough..grr..
4. At cold nights like this, I wished i had feet warmers, i'm getting leg cramps
5. I want to get it over and done with the exam A.S.A.P
6. I think stress is hitting me the wrong way this time. I'm feeling sleepy all the time.

Ok.. i'm not REALLY crying, i'm just whining... grrr...

and the weirdest thing is I feel a presense who's reading this and i feel happy. =) nevermind.. i'm obsessed..lolz.. and talking crazy.. ignore me...

Stress is definitely hitting me..hahahhaa.. anyhow i think i'm the first in this world who feels happy during stressed time.. weird..

Good night .. muaxxx :P

Plato's Eternity

Have you ever watched something that is so memorable that you just feel lonely listening to the soundtrack?
I watched this drama about 2 -3 years ago and yet listening their songs agains reminds me of how hurtful it was to watched that show...
In that show the guy gave her a bracelet named "plato's eternity". It was a beautiful story. The show that still leaves me crying for it.
Listening to "你是我的一滴泪" makes me feel the emotions of that show deeply. I don't exactly know why but i find this type of relationship is so painful yet at the same time beautiful. (confusing i know).
You know it feels the same when you watch " A walk to remember" or "A litre of tears".

Here i found a description on what it means by "Plato's Eternity".

"Platonic love, the term interpreted as non-sexual friendly relationship these days, is one of the most misinterpreted term of all time. Plato's idea of the perfect love is not at all just between friends, although it can be non-sexual. In Plato's original theory, the perfect 'platonic' love is pure, emotional and spiritual. When two are 'platonically' in love, they shouldn't just be attracted by physical appearances. They would have fallen in love emotionally and spiritually. This means that their minds would bind and thus know what each other is thinking about at all times...."

Maybe it's the tune of the song or maybe it's just the voice that floats into your brain of thoughts that makes you feel that he's hurting while singing.

.......finding difficulty expressing now.....

it's something like...

"就算是再痛苦的爱情，有你这样在身边爱着我， 守护着我，再痛苦也值得"

Good show...
(to leave me feeling for it for so long.. or maybe i'm just emo :P)

~random~

Bored and guilty..

Today.... mm it's a cold and rainie day. We've been at home doing nothing but trying our very best to study. I love rainie days, it's cosy and it makes me just want to curl up and sleep. =) But exams are so near and yet doing anything else other than studying makes me feel damn guilty. But i can't help it :( how???

Sigh~~~ Like i said.. i'm good at it - procrastinating.....

My Destiny

What if I never knew

What if I never found you

I'd never had this feeling In my heart

How did this come to be

I don't know how you found me

But from the moment I saw you

Deep inside my heart I knew

Baby, you're my destiny

You and I were meant to be

With all my heart and soul

I give my love to have and hold

And as far as I can see

You were always meant to be

My destiny

I wanted someone like you

Someone that I could hold onto

And give my love Until the end of time

But forever was just a word

Something I'd only heard about

But now you're always there for me

When you say forever I'll believe

Baby, you're my destiny

You and I were meant to be

With all my heart and soul

I give my love to have and hold

And as far as I can see

You were always meant to be

My destiny

Maybe all we need

Is just a little faith.

Cause baby, i believe

That love will find a way.hey..

Oh baby, you're my destiny

You and I were meant to be

With all my heart and soul

I give my love to have and hold

And as far as I can see

From now until eternity

You were always meant to be

My destiny