Love you tonnes

Although i may not agree the ways u try to put a smile on my face, of the ways u try to bug me to hear me laugh ..

i still like the ways u try so hard everytime even though u might stand a chance of getting back fired..

Thank you.. love loads

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

Respect. What does this word means?

I dont really know what does it means as i never really own that word before.

Disappointment. What does this word means?

I know this word very well. It visits me very often nowadays.

it comes so often that i'm beginning to feel sick of it.

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you're never wrong, things has always been unfair to you, things always don't go your way

what makes you think, things has been fair to me? what makes you think things go my way everytime? what makes you think i'm fine everytime when i'm actually not?

have u ever tried to think in my shoes instead of standing by your own thoughts all the time?

sitting down and ask me to shut up it's not a solution to what you think i'm wrong and what you think it's justice to me.

i've given you the word "r.e.s.p.e.c.t" more than you could ever ask for, have you given me those in particularly with considerable thoughts ?

A surprise!~

Greco's on saturday night.. a well spent time with friends after a long week..
A well planned Saturday at the gym, at uni and ending it with a girl's night out with coffee and cakes was a recipe to a good day until ... someone made a surprise visit from Sydney!~On Friday night, someone said that i will smile on Saturday and i will have a great time on Sunday because it's a weekend and i should be having some fun instead of burrying myself in assignments...

I then thought it was just a way that he could make me feel better because he wasn't here in Melbourne to be my punch bag all the time..

then that night i came back to him in my apartment.. he came out from my room... although my brother said that my reaction was way smaller compared to him and his gf, i was definitely glad to find him here...

It only really hit me on sunday morning the fact that i woke up to seeing him in the morning. So definitely, he promised that i would smile on saturday night, i did; he promised that i would have a great sunday, i did.

We went to Springvale and did some marketing, bought some groceries for the week..hehe and of course, he was my "kuli" for the day..After poor baby was my "kuli" for the day, the rest of the days were pak toh-ing days..
De tour a while: I got a job guys!~ not much, just working at a sushi restaurant, waitressing, but it's good for now.. and it was sweet that on my first day of work i had someone waiting for me to finish work =) and after work i had someone to have lunch with me, and had home cook dinner that night.. ** though i was the one working, he was the one who was all snoring that night.. bah!~ **:P

ok, back to the pak toh-ing days.. then it was his favourite Sze Chuan restaurant in Melbourne..

Then we also went for a movie after dinner, we watched the X files.. after so many years it still gives me the fright.. ( i think it's just me)

Yesterday, after class, when we were at Safeway getting groceries, he said he wanted to have cheesecake, so we made blueberry cheesecake =)

Yum~ and after making cheesecake and having dinner, we watched a movie at home and just talked for hours .. It's nice to be able to talk for hours like as though time was on our side.. he came all the way from sydney because he was worried that i was too much alone and often tiring myself everyday just to pass days by... today, after class, we just spent more time talking before we had to head to the city sending him off to catch his bus to the airport. Before we head to Southern Cross Stn, he had a favor to ask.. =) and that is to drop by at Koko Black before he goes back to Sydney.His favourite, iced Chocolate.. and we tried out the Belgian Spoil =) it was all so CHOCOLATEY!~~Sending him off this time around, was easier because i know he would be here again soon and i'm also sort of used to it seeing him getting on the bus =) it was sweet of Owee and my brother to accompany me at the station, afraid that i will become emo..

**Dear, once again, thank you for bringing such a great surprise and i really appreciate it very much. Thank you!~ It has lifted my mood and i'm sure we will accomplished what we've talked about for days here. Love you tonnes **

Something to share...

Something happened on Thursday night that i still laughed now while thinking about it... Here it goes..

On Thursday morning, my brother with his gf and i decided that we shall not cook for dinner and we shall indulge in the long-missed Pinky's pizza and ribs.. yum yum.. however, in order to do that we would have to have dinner slightly later because Seing Wan has class till 8.

so on that day, after i finished classes about 430 pm, i decided to stay back in uni to do some readings as i've not done any and don't want to waste much time cramping up till the end of the semester.. and it would be a plus to stay in uni cuz Lern is in the library too doing his work.

So i was all geared up to cover as much as i can within those few hours until Seing Wan finish class.

At 740pm, she walked back into the library.. huurrraaaayyy she finished class early. So then we head back to her place so that she could shower before coming to our place. We also had this brilliant idea that it would be just nice that we order pizza before leaving her place and it would be delivered by the time we reach home.

Back to Seing Wan's place, she happened to be staying in the room that i first stayed in melbourne =) I was there , just rekindling happy memories.. i miss the days in Malvern Mews even though it was after all .. fattening days.. lolz

Roughly at about 830pm, before leaving Seing Wan's place, we wanted to call Pinky's...

Lern: ok Jie, call Pinky's then reach home ngam ngam ady...

Me: you call lar.. why i call, u order lar.. i let u use my phone.. everytime also i call

Lern: ....... *shrugs* fine. i call, wat you guys want?

Seing wan and I : anything lo, we dont mind.. what do u want to have?

Lern: mmm let's order Pepperoni and ribs combo then go Safeway and buy drinks..

seing wan and I: ok

Lern: Jie.. wat's Pinky's number?

*me handing over my phone*
Me: 03 ********

*calling and on the phone*
Lern: AIYO.. IS IT OPEN?? WHY THEY NOT PICKING UP????

Lern:..... PICK UP D DAMN PHONE!!!!~ *making funny faces*

* i was just talking to seing wan, then playing with my hair, then staring at the mirror in the room *

About 7 minutes later... (lern still on the phone, trying to make someone pick up the phone, already getting annoyed) something came to my senses...

Me: WAIT !~ that's not the number, it's our home phone....

everybody in the room BURST OUT LAUGHING....

Lern: *making stupid face* and i've been calling home?! No wonder no one pick up the phone... now house phone got dont know how many miss calls already!~ WHY you so smart wan??

Seing wan: * laughing* wah and there i thought u so geng can remember Pinky's number...

i changed the number and lern called pinky's

We then finally made our order after don't know how many minutes before heading home...

Funny???

hehe.. imagine lern's face.. u'll DEFINITELY find it funny =)

Home is where the heart is ..

After reading Zoe's blog, saying that she misses home .. actually all of us do =)

i miss home too.. i miss messing around, being a clown, i miss just being home.. where i dont usually come back to a place where it is rather cold and less warmth..

it feels alot better actually being able to just talk with everyone there rather than through a webcam.. and come December i'll be able to do that again.. =) mess around and be a clown at home :P

p.s: a message to my dearest granddaddy =) get well soon!!!~~~ we love you tonnes tonnes tonnes!~ :P

Sigh~

I realised it's not easy mastering the art of staring-at-four-walls every night, or even speaking thoughts to myself or even just bumming around alone. I guess these are the days that i dread coming to me..

The days that there's nothing much to look forward to other than the same old lectures and tutorials. The group that i used to hang out with, everyday was just filled with laughter. Even though we run our own lifes but there would still be someone or something to look forward to...Suddenly now everything is dimmed down and what makes it harder is that i not only know these days are here to stay for the next 13 weeks, i also don't feel like opening to others much other than those i've known previously. I definitely hope that the motivation that drives me doing better and better every semester also dont die down on me.. Sigh..

I always try to smile to brighten one's day, and someone once told me dont force to smile but smile because i feel like it. Now a smile is only there when it's necesary.

Worries are filling up within, over issues that i dont want to mention. There's nothing i could do, crying wouldn't help either, other than just try and keep on trying .. ..

Some would say: "why not talk to your boyfriend?? they're always a plan B to everything else..."

but i dont want him to be a plan B and there should be no reason to throw all my worries and self-inflicted depression to him .. let's just say it's not fair! I tried but it made both of us unhappy too..

to make things worse, people around me arent' very optimistic too .. there are not many happy vibes everywhere..

SIGH~

i hope 13 weeks ends quick and the sun in my "world" would shine much brighter than today..

It's been a week..

A week since my boyfriend went back to Sydney.. alot has been going on. I miss Dearie and he's sick :( .. sigh.... can't be there.. but GET WELL SOON k!!~ *love* and i also miss Fang Fang.. no more cold jokes ady..sigh... wish u well too =)

it has been pretty busy over here, and sara was here till yesterday bunking over until she got a place to stay.

Other than that, i've also signed up for the gym, trying to fit gym-ing into my schedule as often as i can.
Hopefully working out will help me maintain my weight rather than making me more hungry. :P and the other thing i've done this pass few days was going to job-hunting. Although, as easy as looking for a part time job sounds, it's definitely not easy to get one here, according to Owee, it takes them a few weeks before they get back to you whether you've gotten the jobs. So far, i've handed in about 7 resumes i think.. hmm and although transport might be a problem after i've gotten any of those jobs, but whatever it is, it could be solved later :P

The reason why i want to try look for a job is because i'm currently only taking three subjects this semester and i have a long weekend, so i guess if i'm able to get a job, and if the job comes along, i will want to give it a try. Instead of just saying that i would look for one, putting it into action is harder than saying it. However, Owee and Hong Ying has made this process simpler for me as they're also looking for jobs. Thank you!~

Other than job hunting, obviously i've got classes, this semester, it's so hard to settle on what subjects to take. I think it's because, first of all, i've got no one to take it with or it clashes with their timetable, second of all, it's all electives, and third, the subjects i wanted to take is not offered.. often as it seems, it is VERY FRUSTRATING. Oh well, i've decided to give Marketing a go this time, hopefully it doesn't give me too much trouble as it is not my field.. and if so happened i do get into trouble.. ***MAK WAE LERN**** " do my assignment!~" lolz.. it's his field..

Well i see everybody is also having their routines running for the semester.. wish everyone luck, and myself too..
and to those who are crazily job hunting.. all the best =)

till then~~ love