hi guys, i know i've been abandoning my blog nowadays as everyday is a new day to do everything else but blog... lol
oh well.. my latest update is.. i'm graduating.. AGAIN...=) i guess in a way i've finally come to terms with it that i'm graduating though not the way i wanted it but i guess.. it's better than not... or rather....
oh well =) now i'm officially unemployed.. without a job, nor am i planning to look for somethign permannent now, all in the head now is to HEAD HOME .. or at least try to go home next year for CNY...
Bridging visa "U" better be approved =) i've better plans at home =)
11/7/09
secrets...
everyone has secrets..
by definition - i think - secrets are not meant to be told nor shared..
however, i also think that if secrets that are shared with someone close makes things better..
BUT... when secrets become a little toooo obvious, but not shared...
then by definition.. it's no longer a secret...
right?
10/23/09
a wrong turn
when things takes a wrong turn, it is bound to take a right turn.
when a door closes, there is bound to be a window open.
therefore, in any circumstance, there is bound to be a silver lining to it
... right?...
10/13/09
life's a fucking bitch...
if these madnes goes on in my head.. god knows.. what i'll do...
can somebody pls do something.. becasue life to me now is an effing piece of shit...
can somebody pls do something.. becasue life to me now is an effing piece of shit...
10/4/09
life...
has sucked the fun out of me lately...
the part where i think of myself and my life now.. i've lost motivation along the way.. hopefully i dont screw my last semester.
next where i think that the only entertainment for me is facebook and also random tv shows .. life's pretty much...boring...
then comes the part where spending money is concern .. it bugs the shit out of me lately for no reason. spending now is like a leech sucking blood out of me and yet i allow it as i convince myself some things are meant to be spent on.
to not be stingy and at the same time be on budget kills my brain cells so often tat i think i waste too much brain cells on them too..
wheres the part that i enjoy life? where's the part where i love everyday and not let days passsed by so quickly without even having time to recall what i did exactly tat was productive.
... the head is going to blow soon....
the part where i think of myself and my life now.. i've lost motivation along the way.. hopefully i dont screw my last semester.
next where i think that the only entertainment for me is facebook and also random tv shows .. life's pretty much...boring...
then comes the part where spending money is concern .. it bugs the shit out of me lately for no reason. spending now is like a leech sucking blood out of me and yet i allow it as i convince myself some things are meant to be spent on.
to not be stingy and at the same time be on budget kills my brain cells so often tat i think i waste too much brain cells on them too..
wheres the part that i enjoy life? where's the part where i love everyday and not let days passsed by so quickly without even having time to recall what i did exactly tat was productive.
... the head is going to blow soon....
9/22/09
Love is Giving
Love is giving, not taking
mending, not breaking,
trusting, believing,
never deceiving,
patiently bearing
and faithfully sharing
each joy, every sorrow,
today and tomorrow.
Love is kind, understanding,
but never demanding,
love is constant, prevailing,
its strength never failing.
A promise once spoken
for all time unbroken,
love's time is forever.
Anon
Congratulations to the Sze Sze's on their wedding, it was wonderful and very very romantic. wishing you both EVERY happiness =)
xoxo
9/16/09
Paths.
crossing paths is what i wanted, and if crossing paths is what i get then will crossing paths be enough?
crossing paths? not getting it.. even if i do, there wouldn't be a meeting of hearts
9/4/09
a year older...
technically i'm a year older but i dont feel a difference.. not that i feel younger nor do i feel older...
comes to think of it .. i really wished i was younger with lesser responsibilities then older with much more freedom...
as my aunt put it.. the way the day was celebrated was very much a sign of where i am now - all grown up...
i want to thank June, Natalie, Liliane, Natalie, Cadence and EJ for turning up at my door with a birthday cake =) i was very pleasantly surprised and could not have asked for more =) it's the thought tat counts, i know everybody is very caught up with work...
counting down to my day i was up till 6, pleasantly pleased with an also unexpected birthday wish. thank you too...
the day itself.. i was standing for 7 hours working.. and after work .. i insisted terribly even tho dead tired to have a well deserved dinner.. and who else is better to sit with me for dinner other than my only brother in melbourne.
my favourite gift :P
comes to think of it .. i really wished i was younger with lesser responsibilities then older with much more freedom...
as my aunt put it.. the way the day was celebrated was very much a sign of where i am now - all grown up...
i want to thank June, Natalie, Liliane, Natalie, Cadence and EJ for turning up at my door with a birthday cake =) i was very pleasantly surprised and could not have asked for more =) it's the thought tat counts, i know everybody is very caught up with work...
counting down to my day i was up till 6, pleasantly pleased with an also unexpected birthday wish. thank you too...
the day itself.. i was standing for 7 hours working.. and after work .. i insisted terribly even tho dead tired to have a well deserved dinner.. and who else is better to sit with me for dinner other than my only brother in melbourne.
my favourite gift :P so there it is.. my day.. which came quietly and ended quietly..
8/29/09
its been a while tat i've done this.. PROPERLY :p
cam - whore :P*dont feel like putting on FB so put here lo :P*
8/26/09
finally..
the first thing mr.mak said when he saw me today was "omg u look like mum!"
then i had to rub it in.. and ask " so how was your day? what did you eat for lunch? what you want to have for dinner? " (exactly like what mum would do) and mr. mak continued to roll his eyes
lol....
oh well.. the little things we do to pass time...
so look like the mrs.mak back home right? i think so too :P*love you mum* hahahha
8/23/09
8/17/09
WHY?
why the fuck am i studying?
what the hell am i doing?
i've been determined to progress but things just have to stumble and fall in front of me to stop me from it...
what the HELL AM I DOING?
feel like screaming at whoever and watever that gets in the way but things doesn't seem to change for the better...
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?
why are the subjects this semester so hard to grasp, why the people i meet are dickheads, why i can't focus, why i feel suicidal, why why why why why!!!!!!!!~!!!
JUST WHY?
why can i be understanding and no one bloody hells takes the time to understand what i need now!
what the hell am i doing?
i've been determined to progress but things just have to stumble and fall in front of me to stop me from it...
what the HELL AM I DOING?
feel like screaming at whoever and watever that gets in the way but things doesn't seem to change for the better...
WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?
why are the subjects this semester so hard to grasp, why the people i meet are dickheads, why i can't focus, why i feel suicidal, why why why why why!!!!!!!!~!!!
JUST WHY?
why can i be understanding and no one bloody hells takes the time to understand what i need now!
8/9/09
random thoughts to share
1. lately been reading a book... and i came across this sentence.. that has somewhat caught my attention and after a long time, the line remained as memorable as it is =) it goes like this
"it is a gift to be able to look at the most painful suffering and still find a glimmer of light and bring hope"
have you realised not many people can do that? and i admit i can't do that, but it's worth the try, it makes us better people =)
2. another random thought to share...
i highly recommend Dreamgirls to those who enjoys musicals as much as i do, i know this has been a movie quite some time ago, but IT'S GOOD, until now i still am listening to their soundtracks and still can find inspiration in their lyrics.. =)
3. another random thought, i realised my blog is not as personal as i hoped it will be... just a reminder, this is my territory, my space... pls =) just enjoy what i write and don't make it a CNN ..if anyone do enjoy reading my blog online, take it as a personal enjoyment and not gossiping about it.. and even if u do.. pls (smiles again nicely) dont let it end up in my ears...
4. to be random again =) i woke up today and washed all bedsheets! random enough? :P so tonight all our bedsheets at home will smell like laundry powder.. no more stinky smell already :( i kinda enjoy stinky tho :P (*ok gross, sorry :P)
5. to complain about, i am sitting here for almost the whole day now.. and not progressing at my assg.. good job right.. and it's due this week..grrr
6. went surfing on the net, and realised things that are painfully beautiful always ALWAYS catches my eyes =.=''
"it is a gift to be able to look at the most painful suffering and still find a glimmer of light and bring hope"
have you realised not many people can do that? and i admit i can't do that, but it's worth the try, it makes us better people =)
2. another random thought to share...
i highly recommend Dreamgirls to those who enjoys musicals as much as i do, i know this has been a movie quite some time ago, but IT'S GOOD, until now i still am listening to their soundtracks and still can find inspiration in their lyrics.. =)
3. another random thought, i realised my blog is not as personal as i hoped it will be... just a reminder, this is my territory, my space... pls =) just enjoy what i write and don't make it a CNN ..if anyone do enjoy reading my blog online, take it as a personal enjoyment and not gossiping about it.. and even if u do.. pls (smiles again nicely) dont let it end up in my ears...
4. to be random again =) i woke up today and washed all bedsheets! random enough? :P so tonight all our bedsheets at home will smell like laundry powder.. no more stinky smell already :( i kinda enjoy stinky tho :P (*ok gross, sorry :P)
5. to complain about, i am sitting here for almost the whole day now.. and not progressing at my assg.. good job right.. and it's due this week..grrr
6. went surfing on the net, and realised things that are painfully beautiful always ALWAYS catches my eyes =.=''
8/3/09
THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS!
how come it's always always always me??????
what the hell is wrong with these people!!!! i'm so bloody disgusted that i seriously feel like vomitting now.
It is as if life has not given me enough stress, and to add it up, while i was just sitting in the train after work, BROAD DAY LIGHT, a middle age asshole came sitting next to me, started sitting closer and closer, every chance he gets, he moves closer, tryign to talk to me and i was making it BLOODY OBVIOUS that i'm busy with my book, and with my ipod in my ears..
assholes like you just dont get it dont you.!!!!!!!ARGH!~ i'm so FUCKING ANNOYED AT THIS SHIT! somemore introduced yourself, to shake my hand and not letting go! what the HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!
at the end of it, i have to get off a train to get away from that asshole because his whole body was leaning on me, and wasted time waiting for the next franskton line!
why the hell these things happens to me, AND AS ALWAYS i look so tired and with hair tied up and specs reading a book. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!
i feel SICK TO THE GUT NOW!
what the hell is wrong with these people!!!! i'm so bloody disgusted that i seriously feel like vomitting now.
It is as if life has not given me enough stress, and to add it up, while i was just sitting in the train after work, BROAD DAY LIGHT, a middle age asshole came sitting next to me, started sitting closer and closer, every chance he gets, he moves closer, tryign to talk to me and i was making it BLOODY OBVIOUS that i'm busy with my book, and with my ipod in my ears..
assholes like you just dont get it dont you.!!!!!!!ARGH!~ i'm so FUCKING ANNOYED AT THIS SHIT! somemore introduced yourself, to shake my hand and not letting go! what the HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!
at the end of it, i have to get off a train to get away from that asshole because his whole body was leaning on me, and wasted time waiting for the next franskton line!
why the hell these things happens to me, AND AS ALWAYS i look so tired and with hair tied up and specs reading a book. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!
i feel SICK TO THE GUT NOW!
7/29/09
The Holiday
.. i've just spent the evening watching this movie, it's a good movie really =)
it may be a little outdated to only watch it now, but it made me cry loads, but it also make u want to just take a break and meet a romantic stranger ...
in many angles, i relate to the characters in the movie, loved it, shed some tears, but also brought hope =)
want to feel warm and fuzzy during the weekend, this is most likely a good movie to start with ... :P my weekend started already .. hahaha
xoxo
7/26/09
Congratulations =)
want to drop a note here, congratulating a good friend who's found happiness =)
may you both have a great life together
congratulations to the both of you and i wish you both every happiness, every joy and all the love
*truly a happily ever after*
7/25/09
wish me luck =)
during this weekend.. there's a take home final exam to complete..
pls pray that it will be SMOOOOOOOTH sailing =)
xoxo
7/21/09
updates...
this is such an abandoned blog i realise for the weeks that i've been busy :P
time to lighten it up again =)
as u guys know the new semester just started and i've already got loads to do! (together with the overlapping winter semester unit)
hehe i'm looking forward to graduate soon, get studies out of the way and right before another chapter of life starts .. me wanna holiday! HOLIDAY! HOLIDAY!
lol i guess that's clear enough, i want to be home where everybody is, want to be close to friends and family ....
not to brag about anything but i think i deserve a good break since i never stopped since undergrad ... and ... A GOOD BREAK IS WAT IM GOING TO GET ....
and i'm going for it.. :P
time to lighten it up again =)
as u guys know the new semester just started and i've already got loads to do! (together with the overlapping winter semester unit)
hehe i'm looking forward to graduate soon, get studies out of the way and right before another chapter of life starts .. me wanna holiday! HOLIDAY! HOLIDAY!
lol i guess that's clear enough, i want to be home where everybody is, want to be close to friends and family ....
not to brag about anything but i think i deserve a good break since i never stopped since undergrad ... and ... A GOOD BREAK IS WAT IM GOING TO GET ....
and i'm going for it.. :P
xxxx
ok, next.... hahahhahaa me got an iphone...
so addictive man seriously!
for the pass few nites i've been sleeping late even after a long day just to learn applications and put stuff in the phone to get it up and running...
now the next motive is to get a pretty baju for my phone...
was out two days in a row to spot for one.. =.='' so disappointing.. didn't get any..sigh...
pray that i get one soon before a scratch on it comes ...
oh well.. tat's all the updates for now..
will be back with more .. hehehe
XOXO
7/17/09
it's been a TRUE while...
that i've not updated my blog..
mm .. ok judgement day came and went.. all is good... not exactly jumping for joy, but i'ts one step closer to goals=) so all is good
Lately, i've been very much addicted to Michael Jackson's songs.. i know this seems old news.. but it's just one of the things that i want to stop and say " YOU WILL BE MISSED"
u made history in the music industry, and has brought us great great music and entertainment for decades, even though as a person u are still a great mystery but as an icon, u're awesome.
why do i stop and commenting a week's old news, this is because as i was waiting for the train today, i walked passed this man who was in suits and a heavy laptop bag, tapping his feet to the ryhthm of the song listening to his ipod, i realised, MJ's songs make me do that too, and i believe no matter we love or hate MJ as an icon or a person, whether or not we are his fans, everyone knows his songs, everyone taps to the rhythm of his songs, and sing along as it goes.
this person had speak out what i think of his passing.
XOXO
7/7/09
sick and tired
of being outshined all the time..
wanna be the one shining rather than standing next to one that's shining
being quiet about things doesn't mean feelings are not hurt
being hush about issues doesn't mean i'm not angry
being silent towards comments doesn't mean i'm ok
the worse is, when i'm smiling with you.. it DOES NOT MEAN i'm happy
every person should be respectable, if i'm reminded that i'm ugly and u are shining, it doesn't mean u acknowledge and feel good without taking into account of wat i feel
BE SENSIBLE AND SENSITIVE!
*seriously, majorly, awfully sick and tired*
wanna be the one shining rather than standing next to one that's shining
being quiet about things doesn't mean feelings are not hurt
being hush about issues doesn't mean i'm not angry
being silent towards comments doesn't mean i'm ok
the worse is, when i'm smiling with you.. it DOES NOT MEAN i'm happy
every person should be respectable, if i'm reminded that i'm ugly and u are shining, it doesn't mean u acknowledge and feel good without taking into account of wat i feel
BE SENSIBLE AND SENSITIVE!
*seriously, majorly, awfully sick and tired*
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