~Little~Thoughts~

officially... unemployed...

2009-12-07T08:23:00.002+08:00

hi guys, i know i've been abandoning my blog nowadays as everyday is a new day to do everything else but blog... lol

oh well.. my latest update is.. i'm graduating.. AGAIN...=) i guess in a way i've finally come to terms with it that i'm graduating though not the way i wanted it but i guess.. it's better than not... or rather....

oh well =) now i'm officially unemployed.. without a job, nor am i planning to look for somethign permannent now, all in the head now is to HEAD HOME .. or at least try to go home next year for CNY...

Bridging visa "U" better be approved =) i've better plans at home =)

secrets...

2009-11-07T21:00:00.002+08:00

everyone has secrets..

by definition - i think - secrets are not meant to be told nor shared..

however, i also think that if secrets that are shared with someone close makes things better..

BUT... when secrets become a little toooo obvious, but not shared...

then by definition.. it's no longer a secret...

right?

a wrong turn

2009-10-23T22:01:00.002+08:00

when things takes a wrong turn, it is bound to take a right turn.

when a door closes, there is bound to be a window open.

therefore, in any circumstance, there is bound to be a silver lining to it

... right?...

life's a fucking bitch...

2009-10-13T16:07:00.003+08:00

if these madnes goes on in my head.. god knows.. what i'll do...

can somebody pls do something.. becasue life to me now is an effing piece of shit...

life...

2009-10-04T21:05:00.003+08:00

has sucked the fun out of me lately...

the part where i think of myself and my life now.. i've lost motivation along the way.. hopefully i dont screw my last semester.

next where i think that the only entertainment for me is facebook and also random tv shows .. life's pretty much...boring...

then comes the part where spending money is concern .. it bugs the shit out of me lately for no reason. spending now is like a leech sucking blood out of me and yet i allow it as i convince myself some things are meant to be spent on.

to not be stingy and at the same time be on budget kills my brain cells so often tat i think i waste too much brain cells on them too..

wheres the part that i enjoy life? where's the part where i love everyday and not let days passsed by so quickly without even having time to recall what i did exactly tat was productive.

... the head is going to blow soon....

Love is Giving

2009-09-22T20:15:00.003+08:00

Love is giving, not taking

mending, not breaking,

trusting, believing,

never deceiving,

patiently bearing

and faithfully sharing

each joy, every sorrow,

today and tomorrow.

Love is kind, understanding,

but never demanding,

love is constant, prevailing,

its strength never failing.

A promise once spoken

for all time unbroken,

love's time is forever.

Anon

Congratulations to the Sze Sze's on their wedding, it was wonderful and very very romantic. wishing you both EVERY happiness =)

http://www.szesze.net

xoxo

Paths.

2009-09-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

crossing paths is what i wanted, and if crossing paths is what i get then will crossing paths be enough?

crossing paths? not getting it.. even if i do, there wouldn't be a meeting of hearts

a year older...

2009-09-04T18:32:00.006+08:00

technically i'm a year older but i dont feel a difference.. not that i feel younger nor do i feel older...

comes to think of it .. i really wished i was younger with lesser responsibilities then older with much more freedom...

as my aunt put it.. the way the day was celebrated was very much a sign of where i am now - all grown up...

i want to thank June, Natalie, Liliane, Natalie, Cadence and EJ for turning up at my door with a birthday cake =) i was very pleasantly surprised and could not have asked for more =) it's the thought tat counts, i know everybody is very caught up with work...

counting down to my day i was up till 6, pleasantly pleased with an also unexpected birthday wish. thank you too...

the day itself.. i was standing for 7 hours working.. and after work .. i insisted terribly even tho dead tired to have a well deserved dinner.. and who else is better to sit with me for dinner other than my only brother in melbourne.my favourite gift :P

so there it is.. my day.. which came quietly and ended quietly..

its been a while tat i've done this.. PROPERLY :p

2009-08-29T23:57:00.002+08:00

cam - whore :P

*dont feel like putting on FB so put here lo :P*

finally..

2009-08-26T20:16:00.002+08:00

the first thing mr.mak said when he saw me today was "omg u look like mum!"

then i had to rub it in.. and ask " so how was your day? what did you eat for lunch? what you want to have for dinner? " (exactly like what mum would do) and mr. mak continued to roll his eyes

lol....

oh well.. the little things we do to pass time...

so look like the mrs.mak back home right? i think so too :P

*love you mum* hahahha

2009-08-23T00:32:00.001+08:00

heroes dont leave their troops to fight alone and stand alone thru the journey...

WHY?

2009-08-17T11:54:00.002+08:00

why the fuck am i studying?

what the hell am i doing?

i've been determined to progress but things just have to stumble and fall in front of me to stop me from it...

what the HELL AM I DOING?

feel like screaming at whoever and watever that gets in the way but things doesn't seem to change for the better...

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?

why are the subjects this semester so hard to grasp, why the people i meet are dickheads, why i can't focus, why i feel suicidal, why why why why why!!!!!!!!~!!!

JUST WHY?

why can i be understanding and no one bloody hells takes the time to understand what i need now!

random thoughts to share

2009-08-09T15:22:00.003+08:00

1. lately been reading a book... and i came across this sentence.. that has somewhat caught my attention and after a long time, the line remained as memorable as it is =) it goes like this

"it is a gift to be able to look at the most painful suffering and still find a glimmer of light and bring hope"

have you realised not many people can do that? and i admit i can't do that, but it's worth the try, it makes us better people =)

2. another random thought to share...

i highly recommend Dreamgirls to those who enjoys musicals as much as i do, i know this has been a movie quite some time ago, but IT'S GOOD, until now i still am listening to their soundtracks and still can find inspiration in their lyrics.. =)

3. another random thought, i realised my blog is not as personal as i hoped it will be... just a reminder, this is my territory, my space... pls =) just enjoy what i write and don't make it a CNN ..if anyone do enjoy reading my blog online, take it as a personal enjoyment and not gossiping about it.. and even if u do.. pls (smiles again nicely) dont let it end up in my ears...

4. to be random again =) i woke up today and washed all bedsheets! random enough? :P so tonight all our bedsheets at home will smell like laundry powder.. no more stinky smell already :( i kinda enjoy stinky tho :P (*ok gross, sorry :P)

5. to complain about, i am sitting here for almost the whole day now.. and not progressing at my assg.. good job right.. and it's due this week..grrr

6. went surfing on the net, and realised things that are painfully beautiful always ALWAYS catches my eyes =.=''

THIS IS OUTRAGEOUS!

2009-08-03T13:00:00.002+08:00

how come it's always always always me??????

what the hell is wrong with these people!!!! i'm so bloody disgusted that i seriously feel like vomitting now.

It is as if life has not given me enough stress, and to add it up, while i was just sitting in the train after work, BROAD DAY LIGHT, a middle age asshole came sitting next to me, started sitting closer and closer, every chance he gets, he moves closer, tryign to talk to me and i was making it BLOODY OBVIOUS that i'm busy with my book, and with my ipod in my ears..

assholes like you just dont get it dont you.!!!!!!!ARGH!~ i'm so FUCKING ANNOYED AT THIS SHIT! somemore introduced yourself, to shake my hand and not letting go! what the HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!

at the end of it, i have to get off a train to get away from that asshole because his whole body was leaning on me, and wasted time waiting for the next franskton line!

why the hell these things happens to me, AND AS ALWAYS i look so tired and with hair tied up and specs reading a book. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!

i feel SICK TO THE GUT NOW!

The Holiday

2009-07-29T21:23:00.003+08:00

.. i've just spent the evening watching this movie, it's a good movie really =)

it may be a little outdated to only watch it now, but it made me cry loads, but it also make u want to just take a break and meet a romantic stranger ...

in many angles, i relate to the characters in the movie, loved it, shed some tears, but also brought hope =)

want to feel warm and fuzzy during the weekend, this is most likely a good movie to start with ... :P my weekend started already .. hahaha

xoxo

Congratulations =)

2009-07-26T17:51:00.003+08:00

want to drop a note here, congratulating a good friend who's found happiness =)

may you both have a great life together

congratulations to the both of you and i wish you both every happiness, every joy and all the love

*truly a happily ever after*

wish me luck =)

2009-07-25T21:30:00.002+08:00

during this weekend.. there's a take home final exam to complete..

pls pray that it will be SMOOOOOOOTH sailing =)

xoxo

updates...

2009-07-21T09:49:00.002+08:00

this is such an abandoned blog i realise for the weeks that i've been busy :P

time to lighten it up again =)

as u guys know the new semester just started and i've already got loads to do! (together with the overlapping winter semester unit)

hehe i'm looking forward to graduate soon, get studies out of the way and right before another chapter of life starts .. me wanna holiday! HOLIDAY! HOLIDAY!

lol i guess that's clear enough, i want to be home where everybody is, want to be close to friends and family ....

not to brag about anything but i think i deserve a good break since i never stopped since undergrad ... and ... A GOOD BREAK IS WAT IM GOING TO GET ....

and i'm going for it.. :P

xxxx

ok, next.... hahahhahaa me got an iphone...

so addictive man seriously!

for the pass few nites i've been sleeping late even after a long day just to learn applications and put stuff in the phone to get it up and running...

now the next motive is to get a pretty baju for my phone...

was out two days in a row to spot for one.. =.='' so disappointing.. didn't get any..sigh...

pray that i get one soon before a scratch on it comes ...

oh well.. tat's all the updates for now..

will be back with more .. hehehe

XOXO

it's been a TRUE while...

2009-07-17T19:22:00.002+08:00

that i've not updated my blog..

mm .. ok judgement day came and went.. all is good... not exactly jumping for joy, but i'ts one step closer to goals=) so all is good

Lately, i've been very much addicted to Michael Jackson's songs.. i know this seems old news.. but it's just one of the things that i want to stop and say " YOU WILL BE MISSED"

u made history in the music industry, and has brought us great great music and entertainment for decades, even though as a person u are still a great mystery but as an icon, u're awesome.

why do i stop and commenting a week's old news, this is because as i was waiting for the train today, i walked passed this man who was in suits and a heavy laptop bag, tapping his feet to the ryhthm of the song listening to his ipod, i realised, MJ's songs make me do that too, and i believe no matter we love or hate MJ as an icon or a person, whether or not we are his fans, everyone knows his songs, everyone taps to the rhythm of his songs, and sing along as it goes.

this person had speak out what i think of his passing.

http://images.google.com.au/imgres?imgurl=http://skepticalbrotha.files.wordpress.com/2009/06/michael-jackson-las-vegas.jpg&imgrefurl=http://skepticalbrotha.wordpress.com/2009/06/25/michael-jackson-1958-2009/&usg=__aiAalhbVYP7H42WXa101c9J0Ql0=&h=439&w=568&sz=23&hl=en&start=488&tbnid=151li1Uqh5ZhqM:&tbnh=104&tbnw=134&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dmichael%2Bjackson%26gbv%3D2%26ndsp%3D20%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DN%26start%3D480

XOXO

sick and tired

2009-07-07T15:27:00.002+08:00

of being outshined all the time..

wanna be the one shining rather than standing next to one that's shining

being quiet about things doesn't mean feelings are not hurt

being hush about issues doesn't mean i'm not angry

being silent towards comments doesn't mean i'm ok

the worse is, when i'm smiling with you.. it DOES NOT MEAN i'm happy

every person should be respectable, if i'm reminded that i'm ugly and u are shining, it doesn't mean u acknowledge and feel good without taking into account of wat i feel

BE SENSIBLE AND SENSITIVE!

*seriously, majorly, awfully sick and tired*

@@

2009-07-04T22:09:00.001+08:00

1215 am...

with no freaking idea how to do my assg

due in a few days .....

SHITS

now wat?

one week old

2009-06-29T22:20:00.004+08:00

still as stubborn as ever.. it's still here... grrr

GO AWAY! stop being a stubborn ASS!

*rub rub rub rub*

where is dearest ye ye to rub rub when i need it the most =.=''

very very very belated =)

2009-06-27T22:29:00.002+08:00

Finally, exams are over, finally i have time .. to sit down .. to catch up with her...

very sorry for missing your birthday...

most likely making up for it now is a bit too late and there is not official gift nor cake. but thank you for being a great friend, and most of all, a support for me, as you're always ahead of me, you have always been guiding me where to go ...

Thank you for being such a great friend, even though we dont hang out as often as uni days anymore, but it doesn't mean any friendship changes =)

i still VERY MUCH LOVE YOU ... and GRATEFUL that you were here when i needed support the most, although we're both the same age, i feel like you're a big sister to me =) and cherish everything you've done for me.. Thank you very very very much ..

happy very very very belated birthday miss owee.. !!!!

love tonnes~!

XOXO

P.A.I.N

2009-06-24T20:35:00.003+08:00

another earthquake at work again....

big brother bruise.
try spotting the smaller brother bruise =)

and the ones on the arm....

and not forgetting before that i close the cash register on my little finger...

how else not to be in pain...

this time.. it caused tears....

女人的成功。。。

2009-06-21T21:09:00.007+08:00

就是可以让他的"男人们"都对她死心塌地，

就算是沉迷在洒满谎言里的日子，他都愿意为她这个贱人，

名叫winnie ng，而被困在这不知所谓的世界。

身为一个女人，她一脚可以有本事踏三船，还一个接着一个的玩。 (因为船还没沉呢!)真厉害!

被发现了以后，他的男人还是决定原谅她，宁愿自己受伤害也在所不辞。

成功吗?

这种人简直是丢完我们女人的面子，伤害了情人之间的联系

让人讨厌到极点

难道对一段感情真心的付出，尽心的培养，称心的希望它开花结果是罪吗?

如果你真的不会珍惜眼前所拥有的"几颗"真心，请你不要一个接着一个的玩弄!

如果这真是你的成功之一，那你。。。。。是我们最大耻辱!!!!!!

Hello World!

2009-06-19T13:04:00.003+08:00

hi people... i know i've been not updating .. disappeared a while.. but i guess u know wat' s happening.. i'ts been HECTIC...and it still is...

just wanted to share a joke i heard ...

as you guys most probably know by now that tolls of swine flu in Victoria is getting higher by the day.. so ....

Interviewer: Are you afraid of the swine flu?
Celebrity: Nah~ because i believe if i'm bitten by the pig i'll get super powers...

:P

LOL

Today's horoscope

2009-05-31T19:49:00.002+08:00

To Ms. Virgo

"A feeling that anything is possible if you set your sights high enough is what it's all about today. You are full of optimism, faith, and may feel the need to take chances at the deepest emotional levels. This is a time of exploring your feelings, a restlessness for new emotional experience and adventure. "

hmm to a certain extent.. this is quite true =)

must try and take some new risks and explore new feelings and new adventures :P

2009-05-29T06:34:00.002+08:00

for the first time~

i want..more than just a pass...T.T

and it burst my bubble.. the first pass in the course...

sigh

"( it's still bugging me...........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2009-05-26T21:29:00.004+08:00

happy birthday dearie, it's been so long since we last talked. aiyo .. i miss you so much...

miss when approaching exam time u will nag me to study and stess me out..

miss when u crack cold jokes until we could almost see snow in melbourne.. hahaha

miss when we all gila gila together..
miss when we all "aunty-aunty" together . go market. cookouts..
miss when we have to MUST MUST kopi together everywhere! ... now nobody feed my caffeine addict ady.. haha want to find kaki also hard..
miss that time when u laugh at me when i can't jog like you=.=''
miss when we group study.. now exams are coming i have yet to start =.=''

miss when you offer to cook meals for me then end up washing plates :P lol

miss when you "gian" minum at home also .. hahahha
soooo much more..

WOI! cepat balik sini.. mari gila gila lagi =) lol

anyway.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY and hope you have a great one and may you have a great year ahead and everything goes your way =)

miss you tonnes and love you loads.. thank you for growing up with me =) and make me grow up too =) you are a great friend that everyone can wish for and so much more and melbourne has since been so much different when u left .

xoxo

=.=

2009-05-26T06:30:00.002+08:00

my eyes are barely open and i have to be awake ...

sigh~

i'm heading to work again.. not that i'm complaining about work... i kinda like what i do now since i've gotten used to the routine.. BUT~

what i'm allowed to complain about is!

i've been coughing like shits at night T.T and i dont like it.. i can't sleep.. and i need the beauty sleep! i WANT to I LOVE to sleep...=.=.. yet the cough gets in the way~ grrrrrrr so not helping at all ..

2 nights in a row already.. enough enough enought T.T

GAH~~~~~~~

make me so grumpy in the morning...

U PISS ME OFF!

2009-05-24T09:19:00.002+08:00

dont come and talk crap in front of me saying how the work should be done for more than a week and you do nuts...

dont come and bull shit with me to have a comprehensive discussion when you have done nuts

dont come and tell me you being a uni student dotn know how to cite your work while writing

dont come and tell me that the dateline for ourselves was friday and YOU YOURSELF DID NOT COMPLETE IT UNTIL TODAY AND IT'S BLOODY DUE TOMORROW

dont talk shits with me saying you're stressed. YOU BROUGHT THIS UPON YOURSELF AND PLEASE DONT PUT YOUR MESS ON US

YOU ASSHOLE!

dinner with gyn =)

2009-05-23T21:48:00.003+08:00

i remember i used to post updates on what i cook.. and i've yet to be doing that in a while now.. it's been so hectic and busy and weekends fly by in an instant. i'm currently very very tired and eyes are about to close any moment. but! lol

......

something to share with you guys =)

dinner with me?

i've tried on a new recipe today...

Ham and Cheese Potato Bake
it's taste a quiche-like texture

it tasted yummy =) but still could be improved in the texture of the potato bake in terms of the egg and cream mixture and also the onions to be more finely chopped =)

very happy with the first attempt

yay!!!

ok.. now i'm done showing u my achievement of the day

night everyone .....

To Share...

2009-05-20T15:25:00.005+08:00

in the midst of doing my assignment, i've blog hopped a bit, and came across a few nice posts, let me share it with u guys.. hope that person dont mind =) it's nice to share isn't it =)

The first one was a short line that i read, was so personal

"Eh, talking halfway you go and sleep... make me feel stupid only" (personal enough?)

Next, this is what i call being positive =)

I am thankful...

1. For the husband who snores all night, because he is at home asleepwith me and not with someone else.
2. For my teenage daughter who is complaining about doing dishes,because that means she is at home & not on the streets.
3. For the taxes that I pay because it means that I am employed.
4. For the mess to clean after a party because it means that I have been surrounded by friends.
5. For the clothes that fit a little too snug because it means I have enough to eat.
6. For my shadow that watches me work because it means I am out in the sunshine.
7. For a floor that needs mopping, and windows that need cleaning because it means I have a home.
8. For all the complaining I hear about the government because it means that we have freedom of speech.
9. For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lotbecause it means I am capable of walking and that I have been blessed with transportation
10. For the noise I have to bear from my neighbours because it means that I can hear.
11. For the pile of laundry and ironing because it means I have clothes to wear.
12. For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day because it means I have been capable of working hard.
13. For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours because it means that I am still alive.

Enjoy~

A lesson...

2009-05-20T12:56:00.002+08:00

to be learnt. this post is no offence to anybody but an awareness..

statements that sucks big time... big NO NO to use...

1. * concentrating with sudoku on the train - then a hand comes into sight - then when the girl looks up - he smiles and say ...* " you love maths??? i see you've been doing this quite often" =.=''

2. *wanna catch attention or start a conversation .. never* " why u so slow wan... *in canto* so big do things so slow" *then smiles back to expect a reaction*

3. * wanna know whether someone's taken - just ask - not * " oh u are different..., your bf must be lucky to have you " ( if u're expecting me to tell u whether or not.. i'll just smile to tat sentence and have no further reaction)

4. * wanna make someone feel special - dont ..* "if... i'll make that the highlight of the week for you" (not "for me".. but use "for you" =.='')

5. *wanna praise somebody - dont..* "you don't look your age.. must be the hair.. asians have nice hair" <<<< that's what i call ODD =.=''

all the above... you'll only get this expression =.='' and it'll go no where.. ..

plans...

2009-05-16T21:39:00.004+08:00

S.C.R.E.W.E.D

for the weekends...

couch potato???

not!

lazing and sleeping ??

Not!

i did this.....dressed up..some alcohol..having some fun with the girls.

However, the highlight of the night was...the sleepover at Zoe's

cam whoring sessions with her.. *no idea wat she posing also*

.chattings and catching ups. *haven't been doing so since the seasons of assignments

.hot milo, comfy couch, and conversations running.

.yap yap yap until bed time at 430am.

Thanks babe! good fun =)

A Cup of Coffee

2009-05-15T06:21:00.003+08:00

here i am sitting in front of my pc early in the morning.. with my essential cup of kopi =) to start my day...

going to work soon...

today will be a day of relaxation...

after work... i look forward to just S.L.A.C.K at home...

be a COUCH POTATO on a friday night...

not a bad idea aye...

looking forward to the space .. *loves* yipppeeee

(dunno why so hyper also... only watch tv =.='')

(can ignore the hyperness)

I've not been sleeping at times i should nowadays.. cuz i was too "smart" to have tea to keep myself warm at night.. then it makes me stay WIDELY awake at night...

thus i shall... s.h.l.e.e.p.p all i want this weekend :P.. haha..

like this fella..

Issues..

2009-05-13T18:34:00.002+08:00

a few issues... today .. grrr my nail broke morethan it should.. it hurt...

a small wrist bruise .. no diea where from...

nails are chipping apart...

the other issue that's annoying me..my left eye is STILL TWITCHING after a week.. come on.. if anything that has happened tat was supposingly bad.. i dont need anymore .=.='' i want a break!

Happy Mommy's Day!!!!

2009-05-10T15:47:00.006+08:00

Dear mummy...

Happy Mommy's day!!!

Thank you for everything you've done...

Words could not describe how important you are to me...

Thank you for being there...

Thank you for nagging...

Thank you for being so "cheong hei"

Thank you for always making me want to argue with you at times... (lol)

But most of all...

Thank you for being so encouraging...

Thank you for loving me as i am...

Thank you for making sure that i'm ok at my lowest...

Thank you for celebrating with me when there's been an achievement

and so much so much more~~

speaking on behalf of my brothers too...

even tho we monkeys always make you angry, make you wanna just "take time off" of your "san fu" full time job.. but i'm sure =) you KNOW!!!! that deep down we all LOVE YOU TO BITS!!!! (otherwise also wont make you angry! lol)

致亲爱的婆婆。。。

母亲节快乐!!! 希望您永远都开开心心，健健康康。

我们这里的两只"猴子" 很想您。。。我很怀念每天和您无聊的吵!!!=)

我们要趁母亲节，这个特别的日子说声谢谢!!!!

好爱您!

To the rest of the mums out there! HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!

p.s//To the rest of us out there.. remember to wish our dearest mums a happy mother's day! treat them well while you can =)

感动。。。 =)

2009-05-06T16:10:00.001+08:00

无论如何，是真是假，作为听者，也很开心，听到了，人也精神了起来

真心的告诉你，我因有了你感到骄傲，现在很快乐。

谢谢你=)

Happy Big 30!!!

2009-05-05T19:35:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday UNCLE Leon... now i can officially call u uncle and u CANNOT call me auntie no more.. cuz u "tiga keping tak da change" lol...

sorry the celebration came a little late.. but the small gathering was fun.. hope u achieve ur dreams, become a DR soon! lols and of course had a great b'day. =)

thanks for being a good friend.. if it weren't for you this big kor kor brought me out when i was first here.. me most likely became a turtle that hides inside her shell for comfort already.. THANK U LOADS...UNCLE leon and wifey AvrilUS.. we went to this place on Clarendon St, "Blue Rock" (i think) hahhaa i can't remember.. it's definitely blue somethign but can't remember the name.. served good food.. for the very first time i had lamb shanks served with some mashy eggie thing.. i tought it was couscous..but then again it doesn't taste like couscous.. no idea at all what i had..HAHAHAH...

Natalie and Owee each also had claypot, one of them were mushroom and chicken with risotto, the other were spiced pork risotto.. very interesting food we had that night..

After our treat for dinner, b'day boy *ahem UNCLEahem* treat for dessert.. look how happy ms owee is.. with hot white chocolate ..:P

uncle over there messing around..haha as i was taking the photo... they served cake.. so now u know where ms.owee was looking at...
Carrot Cake! yums.. but tasted like apricot and nuts cake.. hahaHappy birthday again =)

Stress??

2009-05-05T19:27:00.004+08:00

i realise.. when i'm stress.. or rushing for assignments.. i go and bake something rather than sit put to rush my assignments.. this time..

it's choco raisin muffins again but with white chocolate fillings.. yumssssssssss

haha the muffins are huge this time.. it over flowed and the white chocolate filling oozing.. (sounds good???) thus the presentation of the muffins are bad.. hahahahhahaha but tasted ok.. already ate one already..

lols , since i was craving for somethign sweet after dinner.. why not???

could be my breakfast tmr mornign too!

First pay...

2009-05-02T11:19:00.002+08:00

from Tower Sushi this time .. my very very first pay, really through hard work and effort of fitting in. now things at work seem a little brighter and less stress as i've got the flow at work...slowly =)

the feeling is irreplaceable.. hahaha..though it's not much and most likely by today of going out for dinner i might just be finishing my pay for the week cuz i went snack shopping at safeway after my pay! lolz. what a way to reward myself, no wonder i can never seem to keep the weight off! lolz...

oh well.. knowing that now i'm more occupied with work gets a little worrying at times due to the peak of the semester approaching soon T.T exam timetables are out..everyone's busy with assgs.. and talking about assignments.. i'm still sitting here.. updating my blog rather than doing my assg ..lolz i better get going soon..

to everyone else that's also occupied with tonnes of assignments and tests...ALL THE BEST!

Love and Hate

2009-04-30T18:23:00.002+08:00

I love you for supporting me for making me feel that i understand you..

I hate you for confusing me about what i want at times and feel that you're complicated..

this love and hate relationship makes me look forward to see you more and more often...

dear law, pls do make me love u more rather than hate u .. i need to pull through this..

失望。

2009-04-27T15:45:00.002+08:00

对你原本是崇拜。。。

你所拥有的也是种幸福。。。

别人也为你感到骄傲。。。

很可惜。。

这样

2009-04-27T15:42:00.001+08:00

也许是种安慰。。。

对每个人也公平。。。

继续微笑下去就好了! 不要乱搞事。。。

today...遍体鳞伤

2009-04-20T20:26:00.003+08:00

it's been a long and productive day.. obviously tired.. however, things at work is getting a little more ridiculous today... to start off the day at work, wasn't so much of a complain but it started out so frightening, my day then became longer and more tired.

i told myself more than just twice to "bring it on" and face work head on.. obviously positive attitudes were suppose to bring positive outcomes.. i guess it worked but i thought it would be a little better than out of 9 people in the shop including me, more than one would ask wat's my name.

yes.. only 1 asked ...sigh~ the rest was "ei.. do this.. ei do that..." =.=''

as usual i had to take the key to the locker to put my bag before i start work, and by doing that i had to open a cupboard which was at the kitchen area to grabs keys. this time around, as i opened the cupboard, i dont know wat the hell happened, a vegie knife fell out from it.. and i was so shocked that i pulled my hands back.. luckily it didn't hit anybody...

pls tell me how would u have reacted at 9 something in the morning while opening a cupboard and a vegie knife just dropped out of the cupboard bigger than the one you have at home?

i promised and sweared i didn't make a sound when i saw that but my eyes just popped and i stared at one of the chefs beside me who looked back. after standing still a while, i moved on to do things, reassuring things will get better..

however, because i'm the only left hander, i had to be extra careful, extra aware of my surroundings and how i do things..by trying my very best again this time.. i touched the heater at the hot food session.. sigh.. and again i pulled my hands back in a hurry.. although nothing happened.. and no one knew.. but it hurts till now

later on..someone commented at the back "我们这里，跌东西，真的是 "大惊小怪" (i didn't put tat knife there ok.. and if u saw a knife dropped infront of u also will scared lar!)

sigh...

to make things more hurtful in a day, i am usually known to do things quick and neat in the kitchen, but everything i did today seemed slow to them... i tried so hard doing as much as i can and as quick as i can without making mistakes.. i think it iimproved in the end but i feel extremely exhausted today.. cuz i can't tell no one at work...

suddenly feel very suffocated inside...无奈。

it's back =)

2009-04-19T10:39:00.003+08:00

the ring's back.. but unfortunately it looks very fragile!!!! still in love with it...yay!!!!!!

心情记录

2009-04-15T22:47:00.003+08:00

喜欢一个人应该是在明。。。勇敢的说。。。就算被拒绝也必须大胆的面对。

一段感情如果在暗，两个人需要多少的勇气才能够一步一步的往前走?

一段感情的开始和结束，无论如何，都算是缘分，如果有了缘分，勇气就必定的武器向前冲。。

如果真的缺乏勇气的话，就必须问一下自己，这份缘分对你有多重要。

你，流泪了，痛了, 如果选择继续走下去的话 =) 也是一种勇气! 加油!!!

2009-04-15T00:40:00.002+08:00

在这么晚的夜里。。。心想着。。

心痛两个字。。这么写?

想着。。。厌倦两个字。。这么写??

想着烦恼这么解。。。

你能告诉我吗?

为何。。。

2009-04-09T09:53:00.003+08:00

找不回些感觉。。。

难道因为事情的改变而变吗???

值得被珍惜的东西，慢慢走远了吗???

是我想太多吗? 但总觉得不是我想太多。。。

这应该才是事实的开始。

Days like this...

2009-04-08T15:13:00.003+08:00

some of the days u just feel like staying home, you just feel like sleeping the whole day.. you just feel like lazing and being a useless person at home..

that's how i feel today..

falling asleep last nite very motivated to complete my workload as soon as possible.. today waking up to a whole different perspective which is laziness :S....

=.=

must try to survive without a caffeinated system ... it's like drugs .. only function with it and not without it.. B.A.D

and as i'm typing this posts and having a cup of coffee at 5 pm .. i'm getting ready to go for class soon.. grr...why classes are all so late =.=''

H.E.C.T.I.C

2009-04-02T18:46:00.001+08:00

as d title said.. it's been one hell of a week and more to come ~~~it's unfortunately not over yet for me.. sigh.. but anyhow...

DO YOU believe that a compliment a day keeps the spirits high up and away??? :P

Happy 21st Harvey!

2009-03-30T14:11:00.004+08:00

hopefully this is not too late.. it was darling harvey's 21st on friday. We all had a great time..

a message from me to you.

Happy 21st birthday again darling! it's soooooo nice to see u have so much fun on a big day like this and so many people that are important to you around you on your big day.
On a quick note, just want to say thank you =) thank you for being part of my life and giving me a bond to cherish much much.. it doesn't matter how long i've known you for.. wat matters is that we NEVER fail to be there for each other right at the begining.
No matter how circumstances may change in the future, both u and i and the missie there .. lols. will still have each other =)
and as we always say.. love you long long time =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!!!!

Have u...

2009-03-30T10:53:00.001+08:00

met my twin????

trust me, people do believe when i say so .. lolz

A Proposal???

2009-03-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

Today my day was truly driven purely by coffee.. i couldnt' sleep the nite before and i guess it's due to the anticipation of my first 8 hour class today. Unfortunately, my 8 hour class was nothign much but a disappointment, they treated us like we're all experienced to the relevant subject .. so throughout the whole class looking like this >>> @.@

then i think the lecturer dismiss us early by mistake and he didn't know he was suppose to cover the first 3-4 topics as we've not had classes since the semester started... so we left early.. but then again even if he didn't dismiss us early, i would've left to do my own readings... cuz i REALLY REALLY couldnt' understand wat he was talking about.. i've never expose myself to any form of knowledge regarding insurance contracts before.. and out of the blue i was expected to understand a whole load of stuff ..@.@

so i just decided to head to the city to grab a spot at starbucks and just do my OVERLOADED readings!~ i know staying home i would just do loads of other crap but my readings.

starbucks was PACKED today.. =.= so i went to QV found a nice spot in the midst of people walking around.. i did my readings..

3 hours later...(tick tock tick tock...)
someone came and sat in front of me with a bottle of beer.. i didn't acknowledge in the first place cuz i just assumed it would be like the previous lady who sat in front of me just to have sushi. then i realised,, he (looked like in his mid 30s)looking a bit tipsy kept looking .. at me!
so i removed one side of my ear phone... the conversation then started ..

Weirdo: You're very rude do u know that... i said hi and u didn't reply.
Me: (shocked and panic) oh i'm sorry.. i didn't hear you..(tried to give a smile and then continued staring at my notes, HE KEPT LOOKING)
Weirdo: (SUDDENLY GRAB MY HANDS) you're very beautiful do you know that.. u''re very unique.. i swear i swear...(kept smiling at me)
ME: (turned cold.. getting scared..) oh thank you..(let go of his hand and continued to stare at my notes)
Weirdo: (smiled and stare again) you're very beautiful and unique.. i swear i swear..
ME: (wanted to call for s.o.s but no one was paying attention.. didn't dare to touch my phone cuz i'm scared he would get offended so i just smiled)thank you.
Weirdo: So how are you today? you know, you and i , we could get married, we'd made a great couple.
Me: (could hardly smile now) it's alright.. long day.. how are you today?
Weirdo: yea.. long day too.. i know u hate me right now but do u know u're very beautiful...
ME: (OMG i could SCREAM!!!! ) mm i'm sorry i'm not too comfortable like this..
Weirdo: i know i know.. where're u from? i'm ... (forgotten his name.. i think it started with an A) i'm spanish.. ..... (he said the same thing again in spanish..)
ME: (T.T freaking already)

basically it continued like this for a while.. at least 10 minutes.. i turned cold.. he even asked me wat i'm studying.. he told me he was working at Warner Bros and he started singing a tune!
then it went on .. i started to ignore him.. he wanted to grab my hands again.. i kept it to myself.. i was so scared and helpless...

when i kept looking at my notes then i looked at him again.. then he said tat he was gonna leave soon, and apparently he bought somethin but couldnt' find it.. he was checking it in his bag.. it was filled with beer bottles..

while trying to ignore him.. he took of his shirt .. and wore a jacket unzip.. i swear i could cry instantly..

when he finally left.. i couldnt' breath.. i IMMEDIATELY asked JR to come down from her place..

a proposal?? like this??? GO AWAY DUDE.. U'RE FREAKING ME OUT! ( an ordinary person would never understand wat he did cuz i was not dressed up .. with my hair pushed up, long sleeves, plain jeans and sport shoes.. ARE YOU KIDDING ME! whatever i was today it was no other than LOW PROFILE).

it was the longest and most helpless 10 mins in my life.. ***scared***

often times...

2009-03-19T19:52:00.002+08:00

when a heart breaks, it takes time to heal, it knows what's the right thing to do .. and it is doing it's best on its own.

however, when a heart breaks, it's prone to emotional rides, regardless whether it is about the main cause.

one thing, i realised, one thing that the heart takes a longer time to adapt is that, it suddenly feels so fragile, i cry on tv shows, i cry during movies, i've suddenly out of the blue become sensitive to touching moments on screen!! well i guess you could argue that it's only human to feel that way..

but lately, even though i 've been very much occupied, the heart feels empty.. i find that i drown in my own thoughts easily, i sway away from conversations, i seem to not even pay attention sometimes when i'm engaged in a conversation.

At times like this, how i wish that instead of looking out for someone, why not someone come looking out for me...

a little bad luck

2009-03-17T21:31:00.003+08:00

today was overall a great day, met up with my cousins and aunties.. so happy to see them here in melbourne, it brings a great sense of home back to u and u just miss being around family..

in the evening, i felt something weird poking my finger.. like a wire.. T>T and when i took a look.. my ring broke T>T

the ring i've been wearing for so many years, hardly ever removing from my finger, older than i am.. broke .... GAH!~

sigh such a pretty little thing .. so wasted.. MUST get it fixed.. MUST MUST MUST!!!!

not only it's pretty, it has such significant meaning and story behind it ..=)

in short, if this knot-ring has not done its magic 24 years ago, i wouldn't be here today.. there would not be me.. hehehe

fix fix fix fix.. hopefully i would get it fixed and wear it again.. but sadly to say, it's going back to m'sia and dunno when is it coming back.. T>T

my knot !!!! now my finger feels so bare T>T

a little bad luck .. sigh~ and a little devastated too..

ok.. spot the ring.. T>T so sad! but a bit small hoh.. nvm.. lolz..still a PRETTTTYYY picture =)

A brother's wise words..

2009-03-13T22:39:00.002+08:00

Today as we were watching movie, as usual i get a little blur and lost in the midst of the movie, so i tend to not get some conversation that are very meaningful.

My brother then heard a line where it says..

"the universe makes your heart expands when it goes through so much pain =)"

"your heart grows bigger as it closes"

well it just basically means.. when someone gets hurt, they would eventually have to open their heart for someone else to heal and recover, and when that happens, your heart accepts someone new and closes to a bigger heart.

Pretty meaningful line isnt' it =)

It somehow gave a little comfortable feeling after hearing that. Hope you guys feel the same way too =)

Till then...

Funny~

2009-03-11T11:19:00.002+08:00

I saw this advertisement and i tot it's funny and nice to share..

"How the Average Student Spends 3 Years of Their Time"

251 hours wishing for MORE money.

137 hours in front of a MIRROR pulling poses.

52 hours studying.

19 hours making INSTANT NOODLES.

6 hours queuing for festival toilets.

2 minutes paying bills.

.....

so true right??? hehe

tell me they've made ur heart skip a beat!

2009-03-04T08:40:00.001+08:00

Cookie!!!!Cocoa!!! (No longer.. cuz it's too long Ooh - ree -oo)

it did for me =)

so cute!!~!!!

Updates =)

2009-03-04T08:27:00.002+08:00

it's been a while since i updated my blog.. lolz..i've had so much things to do .. so much to adapt to.. still adapting..

i just realised that now i hv evening classes, i really dont know how to adapt to dinner times @@

all my classes are during dinner times, so it's either i have really late dinners or really early dinners.. aiseh.. how to sit down and hv dinner at home during these days =.='' anyhows.. will worry about that later.. haha..

ok.. updates.. lately i've been busy chasing after my applications for pr and jobs. today i could finally say.. the major hassle is COMPLETE. all i need to do now is find a job =.=''

now hv to focus on getting the momentum of studying back.. and make sure i do good and do this course justice!

lol... out of the blue sound so semangat..

@@

2009-02-26T19:30:00.003+08:00

how can i be so careless!~!!!!!! so clumsy!!!!

bah.. so angry at myself .. was filling up some forms with loads of information... i just have to "SMARTLY" off my laptop..

isnt' that the smartest thing i've done thus far ??? GOODNESS ME and i've actually filled so much information... so GERAM !!!!

now i got to start ALL OVER AGAIN! i'll make sure to not do it at night and also with a cup of KOPI-O KAO.. next to me so that i'm alert.. bah~

Back in Melbourne...

2009-02-23T18:08:00.005+08:00

i've been back in melbourne for more than a week already, i flew back on v'day as most of u know.. it wasn't a good time to say goodbye this time, it seemed much more painful than it usually is.. it was rather dreadful to come back here but since it's my own decision i shall not blame anyone for it =)

every second at the airport was a dreadful experience, right from the moment i left home..

and the moment when i was on my seat ready to leave the country i call home .. i put on the Ipod.. it just played "A Perfectly Good Heart" by Taylor Swift.. memories and emotions came gushing as it played...

[Chorus 1:]Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now?

Why would you wanna make the very first scar?

Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

Maybe I should've seen the signs, should've read the writing on the wall.

And realized by the distance in your eyes that I would be the one to fall.

No matter what you say, I still can't believe

That you would walk away.

It don't make sense to me, but:

[Repeat Chorus 1:]Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

Why would you wanna take our love and tear it all apart, now?

Why would you wanna make the very first scar?

Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?

It's not unbroken anymore.

How do I get it back the way it was before?

it's been a truly long long long long holiday this time around, not in terms of the actualy time, i meant it felt like a long holiday...

i guess we just dont "snap out of it" nor do we " move on" that easy but i guess we learn to grow stronger as time passes by.. to who u are.. i know u're going through the very same thing. Be strong ok.. u know i'm always here for u as how u are for me =) love you loads babe..

life back here has been a little hectic but very much productive.. now it's only a matter of time that i get my own stuff settled and those that are pending complete =)

when i have the mood to =), i'll update more pictures of our wifey's first week in melbourne..

2009-02-23T18:00:00.001+08:00

Get your head in the game!

2009-02-19T12:46:00.001+08:00

I need to take a DEEP breath .. and tell myself things will eventually be ok and fall back into place.. sigh..

Leaving in a few hours...

2009-02-13T20:51:00.005+08:00

Back to melbourne, back to the independent self, back to the hardworking self, back to the home sick self ...

hopefully to start anew.. start fresh.. start all over again!

i miss home already T.T

i so dont want to leave this time.. =)

Happy Valentine's Day

2009-02-11T00:36:00.002+08:00

谢谢你们一直都在我身边。。支持我，鼓励我，让我慢慢的恢复原本的自己。

好爱好爱你老公仔!

2009-02-10T00:09:00.003+08:00

hope it brings luck, clarity and knowledge =)

i need it.. i'm glad i found it ... 就只为了求个心安...

Wonders of....

2009-02-05T19:36:00.001+08:00

I was playing with the webcam.. guess what looks different..

it would be the wonders of ...???

To us! With love=)

2009-02-04T21:22:00.004+08:00

There is alot of things to say ..lots of things to share... lots of thoughts to write.. but at the end of the day.. writing it out would only be a more worrying and more frustrating...

In short, cny is almost over, it's time to do a reality check of things to do.. i'm leaving home next week, with the mindset that i stand a good chance not coming back this year end due to certain circumstances, just brings alot of emotions and worries.. i am already missing home, already missing things that have changed and also the wifeys that i'll not see in a while..

Soon enough all three of us will leave the country...

To Zyn =) I know it will be a little more quiet, a little less company, a little less laughters when we've all flown overseas.. but not to worry, u'll always have us ..online, on skype, whenever u need us we will try our very best to be there.. and u know for sure we love u and remember u =) All the best in your future endeavours, in whatever u do.. gambateh!!!Not to worry, we will have our times of noises and our times of craziness anytime, anwhere, no matter where all of us are .. and you know that =)

To us! Cheers!

Pic Fest on CNY!

2009-01-31T19:05:00.013+08:00

This is the time where nothing else matters but moments and moments of love =)

During Cny, mum's the greatest, she will be busy making sure all food is prepared and everything runs well and smooth..
Just because i suggested "腊梅饭" for second day of cny.. look at what we got!
Isn't it just simply IMPRESSIVE!

moments captured on camera are priceless and most cherished

Gong xi fa cai lo! Cherish every moment spent =) loves

Pic Fest! CNY day 1

2009-01-27T17:44:00.010+08:00

Our Reunion Dinner at home.. yumzzzzzThis year, 2009 Chinese new year.. our reunion dinner is COMPLETE =) no one's missing! yay

Then came first day of Cny..

Toby in his bruce lee's new clothes =) so cute!

Thereafter we odjourned to grandma's place Everybody was busy eating while we were crazy taking photos =)
and this year.. Crystal was on me like a leech! =.=''
when we got back home, it was swarmed by relatives ... lolz

and this year there were two baby girls that made their first cny visit to our place.. they are the CUTEST!
Look at them!!!!!! the one mummy's carrying is only about 5 1/2 months old, the one i'm carrying is about 9 months old =) aren't they ADORABLE!

Family picture time!hehe.. enough pictures for now... enjoy the rest of CNY u guys! loves

Gong xi gong xi oh!!

GONG XI FA CAI!

2009-01-26T09:04:00.004+08:00

hey everybody.. wat's up! lolz

Just want to drop by and say HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

let's all welcome the Moooooooooooossss

LOVES and everyone be safe ok.. travel safely, gamble safely, play safely.. hehe GONG XI GONG XI!

A Pre-Cny dinner

2009-01-21T13:06:00.007+08:00

We've been busy with our baking sessions lately.. yumz yumz.. hehe those who are interested in getting their stomach filled with our cookies, must definitely know how to be nice to me :P

This are some of the photos taken during our baking sessions.. there were all in all 4 baking sessions this year =)

See !!! we so bubbly!!!! i shall post pictures of yummy cookies after i've gotten it transfered =)

After 4 days of baking sessions, we've ended the session with a dinner outing to satisfy our cravings for yummy CRABS!

This is our pre cny dinner to get the mood started!!!
Couple No.1 (so ke ai!!!!!)

Couple no.2 (SMILE!!! ^-^v)

and here comes all of us! the happy bunch! tho looking a bit tired.. hehe

MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL>>> FOOODDD!!!!

Dinner was great.. they really made sure we were SATISFIED.. I think i was so satisfied that i could have crabs only this coming year end! lolz..

Though there were something that's definitely worth mentioning about that night, as we were all getting filled up with glorious food, the guys slowly gave up trying to finish the crabs as it was unexpectedly huge! So one by one they went to the loo to wash their hands.

Just as sher and i finished, we conveniently went to the toilet that was closest to our table and washed our hands. We were taking our time washing our hands, cleaning our nails thoroughly and while doing that a guy walked into the toilet. As we were occupying the sink to wash our hands, he went back out, and a while later he came back in. I thought he was just waiting to use the sink to wash his hands. As we got out of the toilet, everybody in our table were like.. "huh??!! isn't that the guy's toilet."

Both of us.. our expressions.. changed!

SO EMBARASSING............. hahaha.. oh well it created more laughters so it's all worth it.."fine fine.. laugh at our expense!"

^-^

A message from a friend 2

2009-01-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

This is from Seing Wan dearie.. a word of encouragement =)

In order for me to remember what they say so i might as well jot it down in this diary of mine..

She said:

冷战或者失恋，也许并不是一件坏事。
一个人的早上，你可以做自己喜欢的事情，不需要另一个人的同意。
以为世界末日了，可是，海还是这么漂亮，夕阳更是百看不厌。
两个人一起太久了，他的快乐，就是我的快乐。
忽然有一天，他消失了，你才品味到除他以外的快乐。

我们重来没有拥有任何人，也不被任何人拥有。不能够忍受寂寞的人，永远也无法享受一个人的时光。
除了你深深爱着的那个人之外，原来还有其它的快乐在等你。

多久没有一个人去旅行了?
多久没有找旧朋友和旧同学了?
多久没有一个人看电影了?
心里思念着他，没可能放的下。
然而，在放不下的同时，体验一下除他以外的快乐，或许可以帮你去遗忘。
曾经以为，除你以外的，都说不上快乐。

然后有一天，学着去欣赏除你以外的快乐。
那些快乐，虽然说有所残缺，也还是一种我从不认识的快乐。

SeingWan.. says (9:58 PM):
jia you oooo..

Thank you darl.. =) loves loves..

the sequel =)

2009-01-20T02:31:00.007+08:00

hey hey.. again feeling alot of emotions tonite =) so tot of story telling again hehe..

for those who's been following the blog long enough would've remember that i wrote a post by story telling my childhood crush experience.

http://gyn-littlethoughts.blogspot.com/2007/09/feeling-random-tonight.html

it was quite a while ago =) by the end of that post, there was i suppose an open ending to it..

To be continued...

=) at 071207, they kissed, that was when everything else started, it was a start of good memories and a start of a great relationship.

eventually she found the heartbeat she never thought she would have, the relationship was going the distance even though they were apart. no doubt there were arguments, fights and also cold wars, but all those have brought them to know each other better.

They've shared a relationship that she thought would never happened as for her she had never believed much in a distance relationship.

haha, by fact, he thought her to believe in alot more than just distance relationships.

throughout the whole journey, he just made it work for the better. She realised that he is for now everything she's been looking for. Obviously at one point in time where she tot of giving up, but by deciding to hold it through, she fell into it all over again.

When a year later of ups and downs, they both met each other 's families, where she finally overcomed the fear of meeting the parents. everything seemed very much of a perfect relationship that ppl would look forward to =)

But due to certain circumstances, the relationship took a sharp turn and ended a week ago. (I shall not reveal too much of it here).

.....................................................................................................

I've got to admit that this turning point of the relationship was very unexpected but today as i write this blog, we've decided to become friends and part for the better =) Even though i'd much prefer an alternative ending rather than this but i guess we've created much memories to be cherished in time to come ... ^^

For what i think right now is that i would rather want back a friend that i've known for 12 years rather than lose a boyfriend for a year and lose touch.

I guess he's given me the best that he could and i guess the best is all i could ask for =)

Before the new year comes, we shall make things better and just cherish what we had before and move on to a better year ahead with much more uncertainties to face and goals to achieve. Let there still be love, forgiveness and most important of all a friendship.

There goes the saying if it's meant to be then it is meant to be..

To you: Hope you'll find what you're looking for and thank you for being part of this chapter that have created wonderful memories to be cherished. love always =)

2009-01-19T11:22:00.000+08:00

真的冷了吗?

真的淡了吗?

真的吗?

the wifeys..

2009-01-18T00:36:00.007+08:00

Thank you guys soooo much for wanting to be there... =)

Wifeys in Melbourne..

the wifeys back home =)

year of MOO MOO!!! =) GONG XI GONG XI!

ahem.. hehe.. he not wifey lar.. he ji mui.. and camera man :P hong hong dont angry ah..!!

2009-01-16T23:41:00.001+08:00

...... why......

2009-01-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

...... why......

Darlings are everywhere..

2009-01-14T09:49:00.005+08:00

it's been a while since we last met.. hmm tho i've yet to number these darlings.. but anyhow, we had a great time just sitting at Starbucks just talking.

In melbourne, it would be starbucks, back here, also we chose Starbucks..lolz..
even though it was really short, but it was sweet =) thank you guys tonnes...love darlings!

A message from a friend

2009-01-12T21:29:00.004+08:00

A message that 's meant to be shared because it shares such a big part of my feelings...

感觉

来谈谈爱的感觉。。

它，
让人觉得很甜蜜，
多份影子；多一个人陪，
多一双手；多一个人分担，
有了它，我不再孤单，
不再害怕那漆黑的夜晚，
不在独自渡过的空虚的岁月，
因为无论在何方，
都会有一个人想著我、恋著我不论做什么事情，只要能一起，就是好的，

这么美好的爱情有谁会不要？
有谁不想早上起床有人拥抱，
有人为你准备份体贴的早餐？
但幸福是要靠两个人把手牵好。

很多时候，
随著彼此的认识，大家都会开始发现与对方不适合得地方，
但要切忌，
在这世上没有你的复制品
只要有沟通就一定会有摩擦
所以遇上问题时，
千万不要觉得烦、累，甚至想要逃避

请记住人是有弹性的，只要你有心、有勇气，与其到处去寻找未知的他/她，还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的感情磨亮？
很多人以为是因为感情淡了，所以人才会变得懒惰。错！其实是人先被惰性征服，! 所以感情才会变淡的。

如果每个人都懒得讲话、懒得倾听、懒得制造惊喜、懒得温柔体贴，那么那份感情将会变得暗淡无趣，渐渐的它将离你而去，所以请记住：有活力的爱情，是需要适度殷勤灌溉的。

其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的
可是因为很爱了，
所以继续爱得更多，给得更多；给对方更沉重的压力，
让彼此喘不过气来，
结果完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

相反的，
以前的我，总是爱自己比较多过他人
但，那时侯的爱情反而经营得很快乐，
这应该是所谓的八分爱吧！
就如：
喝酒不要超过六分醉，
吃饭不要超过七分饱，
爱一个人不要超过八分
那么，我应该也是做错了吧，只能说对不起。。。

2009-01-11T16:10:00.001+08:00

i'm ok.. =)

2009-01-10T11:41:00.000+08:00

could we pls give this another chance to make it work?

IT's time

2009-01-08T12:07:00.002+08:00

Sorry guys that i've not been updating my blog, i've been up and around since i got back home. well today i decided to blog about something because it's so difficult to let it out to others face to face.

To whom it may concern,
I know we've been hurt so badly and we've suffered terrible loss, and no matter how much we try to mend the broken hearts and the loss it will never be the same again. However, we should not always bring this loss up to hurt ourselves, it will only bring us nothing else but pain, by letting go it's better for everyone else. Afterall, it's been 7 years, even though i may sound like i dont care or i have no feelings towards what happened but isn't holding on to such a pain bring us no further and the one who left us will also not be in peace?

we will always want to remember the one who left us but definitely for how much she's brought love to us, how she has thought us to be a better person and so much more but not how she suffered, and how she left. I guess she will never really leave us because she'll always be in our hearts.

i believe in karma, those who put pain upon us will have their share of pain in time to come...

IT's time... to let go

Graduation

2008-12-18T22:40:00.003+08:00

it's a official fullstop to this chapter of my life. thank you to everyone that has made this happen for me so far.

I thank God for making this day as good as it could possibly get(forecasts said it would storm today but it didnt' at all). I've got no complains at all =)

thank you for all those who has been praying at home, wishing for my best, and being there for me.

love you guys loads!

P.S: will upload th photos as soon as i get them uploaded..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNE!!!

2008-12-07T22:12:00.005+08:00

Anne's officially 21!!!

we've celebrated at her place and she cooked up a feast that night, even though i haven't collected the pictures of that night..

I shall share with you guys the gift that we got her that i absolutely adored =)

Hand picked the combo of flowers.. love love love..HAnd made birthday card too.. adore adore adore.. :P

HAppy birthday to anne again!!!!! loves loads

3706

2008-12-01T07:41:00.003+08:00

=) life's nothing much but a bed of roses for now until next year..

and loving it..

looking forward to see mum and bro soon who's coming next week..

i guess time really does pass faster when u're less stress..

currently am living on the 37th floor, i wake up to and sleep with the view of the city since last week.

all is good..

but now i have another worry tho, if my days are going to continue like tat i'll put on weight!!!!

On days when i'm not working, i literally sit home, and sleep =.=''

days have got to pick up otherwise...... i'll need an XL seat to fit my ass... dotz...

Finally...

2008-11-28T14:41:00.002+08:00

The nerves that was affecting everything i was attempting to do for the pass few weeks..

Finally~ guys, i'm coming home with a degree in my hands!!!!!!!!!!!

Still in a disbelieve state of mind, i've been checking my results for so many times, true enough that the paper i was damn worried about i didn't do really well for it.. but the rest was satisfying!

I now can sleep at night, i now can shop till i drop (well, dropped dy :P) , i can do whatever i want without worrying whether my parents will make a worth while trip this time!!!!

The moment the time came, i dropped everything i was doing and just sat in front of the comp, after i checked my results, i went jumping for joy with Sher..

the moment i called home to delivered news, for the first time, i knew what was tears of joy is about =) tho i might 've frightened a few ppl before hand (sorry)

It has been a outstanding year for me, and i hope to be able to keep this up next year.

I just want to say thank you to everyone that's been there for me when i was worried sick, and doubting myself.

To those who has made my uni days easier, you know who you are, thank you guys so much, and also a special thanks to my bro and seing wan for being there..

Especially Sher! Thank you loads for being here and accompanying me to wait for results. LOVES LOADS.. muaxxies

oh and not forgeting to those that has been praying hard for me back home! loves loves

I'm a graduand now!!!!! woooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~~

I'm looking forward to see everyone back home =)

冤枉

2008-11-24T19:33:00.002+08:00

我已经在你身边，尽心尽力的帮助你，还有时候伤害了自己，你既然说我做得不好。

不止如此，你还说我挺会选好的东西。

从你那儿来，还真的很冤枉。我已经尽力而为了。对我而言，我重来没有做过不应该的事。

你们的所作所为，我还替你们维护，到头来，是我被挨骂，你们也看不见我的用心良苦。

感觉现在只有两个子可以形容我的感觉。。。。

不爽!

Thoughts..dreams.. anything lar~ :P

2008-11-24T07:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it is very contradicting on what the elders at home say.. dont you agree???

It's been a week since i last chat with my mum .. then yesterday when we first started webcam, the first thing she said was.. " oi.. ur hair soooooo long dy!!!"

dotz.. like i dont know.. i replied " the last time i say i go cut, u say wait a lill while more to go home and cut"..

See the contradicting part :P lolz.. then she "ya lo ya lo".. So funny lar..

and the night before, i had a dream, Granddaddy was picking me up from tuition.. (no idea which time zone i was at)...then we went to buy Nasi lemak.. before hand.. "dont buy too much.." then when i came back into the car with Nasi lemak..he said again "so little enough meh?? your yeye no need to eat?"

lolzz.. then i woke up after that..

Have been wanting to go home since.. god knows when.. !!! so now alot of dreams lar, thoughts lar.. anything lar~~~~~~~~ (so M'sian now)

Furthermore, my bro is leaving on wednesday all ready to go home!!! :( envy envy envy..
So terrible.. everybody's leaving for home..

On the other note, it's good also that i'm not home so soon.. results are coming out soon, i dread it but yet i can't wait for it.. the nerves are wrecking me up.. i couldn't stop thinking of the damn thing.. which is soooo annoying!

Let's pray that it woulsn't be as gloomy as the weather here in melbourne....

Everybody cross fingers!!!~

(P.s: mum so gonna kill me when she sees this post when i said she's contradicting :P but hey mum.. U KNOW I LOVE YOU!!!~ muaxxies) :P

Sore fingers =)

2008-11-21T21:55:00.004+08:00

Attention to all.. lolz.. i am not torturing myself in Melbourne ok.. i'm doing alright =) lolz..

The reason why i have sore fingers (a thumb and an index finger to be exact) is because when the Tan family came for dinner i over ambitious tried to make the dumplings look pretty.. it took me a while.. but i guess.. to my delight... IT DID!!!

U judge!!!

I'm so proud of my new recipe.. or rather new "look" for pork dumplings.. lolz

Unfortunately, we were all too busy having dinner that night i totally forgot to take photo of what i've cooked .. meh..

lolz.. another time then :P

Reunion..

2008-11-21T21:40:00.003+08:00

A brief and short dinner to keep in touch is always good after such a long while since everybody's busy =)

I've not seen Owee for more than a month because of exams.. and only during her graduation was only a short while but because i was sick as well that time.. there wasn't much catching up going on..

Today's dinner was a short but sweet ..
The usuals.. Universal for Italian and then Fredo's for gelato.. what we love the best =)

Break!

2008-11-18T21:15:00.011+08:00

Since it's holidays, i guess this blog deserves some attention from me.. i've been rather lazy to update.. lolz..

Well since holidays started i've not been up to anything special but just had some catch up sessions..

Furthermore, Uncle Tan and family is here.. so we just spent time and spent time.. today Fong yi cooked Nasi Lemak.. YUM YUM.. we were so hungry, we basically finished almost everything..

Now.. i'll just let some pictures do the talking..

First, it was my attempt of shopping after exams.. went to Brunswick st and had brunch with Leon and Avril.. good brunch..lousy shopping experience, we were there the whole day.. didn't get anything AT ALL.. isn't that sad???

Oh well, at least it's an outing =) but funny enough i was even feeling sleepy during shopping.. =.=''

pls forgive uncle leon.. lolz. he's too hungry.. he has no time to even smile for one picture..meh..The next spending time session was with the Tan family.. we went to the beach today.. and had dinner.. hehe NASI LEMAK!!!!!!!!!!! to die for..(thank you fong yi for such a great meal).

**now they're coming over on thursday.. dotz.. what am i going to cook!!!! After the nasi lemak.. pressure pressure..**

The spread of the nite.. and a bunch of hungry souls.. lolz=) that's all for now.. hope there would be more photos to come for more spending-time-sessions

Loves

Random

2008-11-17T23:05:00.004+08:00

Remember i said i cut my finger a week ago???

i dont know why i think now i'm a little phobic towards washing the knife, even the house knife, and i try to avoid washing the sushi knife as much as i can..

sometiems when i see the wound, i'll still get the shivers and start picturing the way i slide my finger to the knife.. it gives me shivers............ and i feel as though the soar and pain from picturing it..

YUCK~

ok .. i'm already scared of needles.. TO TOP IT UP now it's knifes... OMG.. if this goes on.. i'll be scared of every damn utensil i need to possibly use..

Meh..~ just being a little random and wanting to whine.. bear a lill ok .. =)

Dotz....

2008-11-17T21:15:00.001+08:00

Dotz

....................................................................

no idea how to react

.....................................................................................................

HAPPY

2008-11-16T18:03:00.003+08:00

Happy that exams' over however am still worrying about the result which determines the fate..

Happy that holidays are here and i can do anything and nothing all at once

Happy that we could now waste time

Happy that time would pass "wastefully" and i'll be home soon

Happy that i've influenced my bro to watch Stairway to Heaven.. he's so hooked..

Happy now that i'm free....

am also .. HAPPILY counting down the days i'll be home..

Happy ~~~

空虚

2008-11-12T18:53:00.002+08:00

考完试了，已经完毕了，希望我能够毕业。
感觉考到很差。
感觉很空虚，没快乐的感觉。

发生了一些事情，心情很混乱。
心情闷闷的。。。

An open wound

2008-11-11T14:06:00.003+08:00

Yesterday as i was at work, as usual i was doing my own thing, washing and cleaning.. but this time i was totally smart enough to slice my finger with the JUST sharpened sushi knife..

since i know alot of people wont enjoy me telling them on MSN so i shall blog it out.. gross people out.. i'm so bad now :P

After i slice my finger, i was still zoning and in my own world until i realise it was freaking pain and bleeding non stop. the chef saw me quickly had to put the plaster on to stop the bleeding because me pressing against it doesn't seem to work, rather "smart" to wash the knife that way and get myself sliced wide open like tat with blood gushing out.. lolz

mm i know it's bad of me to be in my own world most of the time, and zoning out lately and losing stream of thoughts, but no idea why it's happening. i'm just not focus.. see wat happens if u handle knife and not focused while doing it..

TADAA~~

the bleeding stopped, and now it looks like i have a cold and pale finger..

3 cuts already on each of my 3 fingers, there was previous 1 knife cut as well after i sharpened the knife and the other was a cut i dont' know where it came about.. lolz..

I've been so "smart" nowadays, it would be rather likely to do the same for the rest of the 7 fingers.. HAHAHA

Apart from War =)

2008-11-10T07:14:00.008+08:00

Due to the long gap between our papers and the rest has finished their exams. We also did more than just studying =) we spend time ... Darl JR is already leaving.. we just had to take up all her packing time!~ lolz

Since she promised to cook for me.. it was a treat to the rest :P see how she spread the love around.. and everyone was very satisfied with that meal =) Thanks babe.. have a safe journey back home .. will miss u loads
Her famous dish... Braised pork.

After our meals.. it was spending time, spending time and spending more time =)

There would be a few more days till its my turn to say i'm free!!~ =) can't wait... i want to go home too~~~~~~~